Jesus H Christ he is still playing the victim.
Hello all
I’m briefly breaking my social media hiatus to say a few things that some may need to hear:
(1) I want to clarify that I don’t think my livestream on the 31st was sabotaged by anyone. I was extremely stressed when recording and when my mic inexplicably kept muting itself, which it has never done before, my mind raced to possible causes. I remembered that Producer Bob at that point had access to my Streamyard and verbalized this on air, but there’s simply no way she could have interfered without me seeing her in the studio interface. I want to apologize to her unreservedly for making that inference/accusation.
(2) Since the livestream I have been informed that Producer Bob was very much involved behind the scenes in orchestrating/supporting the sharing of private information about my life despite her personal assurances to the contrary.
(3) What little I’ve glimpsed of people weighing in on this issue falls very much into slippery slope fallacy territory. To reiterate: I am not a criminal, nor have I engaged in or facilitated any abusive behavior. Aside from the violation of privacy that impacts my whole family there is one injured party in all of this - my wife - and I know she objects to people treating her as a victim. Anyone wishing to accuse me of perpetrating crime should be going to the police before posting their claims on social media if they truly care about the crime itself or any potential victims. To hurl accusations without proof of any kind is slander. I am seeing accusations resurfacing that were leveled at me in 2017 as part of a cyber-bullying campaign orchestrated by the self-styled “Vast Apostate Army” or VAA. These accusations were forwarded to both the producers of Leah Remini’s Aftermath series and IICSA in an attempt to sabotage my involvement in both of those projects, but were given short shrift because minimal scrutiny revealed them to be utter fiction - the product of troubled minds who seek my destruction so fervently that they would like there to be a child who was molested, or “sexted”, by me. Let me be clear: I have many flaws, but exposing child sexual abuse while participating in it is not and has never been one of them. It feels like a violation that I even need to say that.
(4) It is more than likely that Kim will try to share more personal information in the coming days and weeks. I won’t be commenting on each and every WhatsApp screen grab she tweets, if any. Suffice to say: I know who I am as a person and that I am not the narcissistic super villain that she is portraying. I know that despite my differences over the years with trusted colleagues and fellow activists, those I am working with now are the ones I have nothing but respect and admiration for. Whatever words of mine may surface on Kim’s social media, which will almost certainly be shorn of context, I know deep down that I am a good person; that I care passionately about the cause I have served for over 10 years, and that I care about and value all who have helped me in my work including my colleagues and patrons.
(5) I would like to reiterate that as a professional activist I get to spend my wages as I please. My patrons know that I churn considerable money into my channel. It is due to their generous support that I have been able to hire a video editor, build a studio, travel to investigate stories and invest in the best equipment. I simply shouldn’t be asked to account for how I spend my personal funds. If that had ever been the case, I would never have used Patreon to begin with.
(6) I am currently running a poll on the “community” tab of my YouTube channel to see whether my viewers would like me to keep my livestream from the 31st on the channel for the sake of transparency, or have it removed due to the invasive nature of its contents. At this time, the poll is running at 59% in favor of the video remaining. I will do my best to respect the wishes of the majority of my viewers and keep the video on my channel as long as possible, but I also reserve the right to override the results of the poll if I am asked to do so by Dijana who as with myself never asked for any of this attention on her private life.
(7) I am now unapologetically blocking on social media anyone who sympathizes with Kim and her grossly judgmental, vindictive, surreptitious behavior. What Kim has done is the single biggest personal violation I have ever experienced, and it’s hard to believe anyone will ever be able to top it. I generally shy away from “you’re either for me or against me” rhetoric, and I want to be clear that I am not asking people to take sides. But if you use your social media platform to facilitate what is now being inflicted on me and my family, I don’t want to see any of what you have to say showing up in my feed in the future.
(8 ) I am at a point where I am seriously considering stepping down from ex-JW activism altogether. I have been overwhelmed and deeply touched by the outpouring of support by the vast majority of my viewers and patrons. However, I am also seeing the ugly side of the ex-JW movement as never before and I genuinely shudder at this moment when I consider summoning the energy to devote more of myself to producing content that can be enjoyed by individuals who would treat me and those I love with such disdain. Quite apart from that, a significant element of my work involves collaboration with other ex-JWs, which in turn requires trust. Kim’s actions have decimated my trust in working with other ex-JWs and I am not sure I can ever collaborate again on the level I was doing before all this happened. Suffice to say, my life is in turmoil right now and I have no idea what is going to happen next. But whatever becomes of me I want to sincerely thank all those who have extended support and solidarity in this profoundly stressful period. Your kind words and unconditional love means more than you can know.
Lloyd