Fognomore - many of us have been in the exact situation! IT SUCKS.
I have not figured out how to reconcile all I have lost and the time I have left yet either.
IMPORTANT!
Religion is so damaging to kids and their developing brain
YES IT IS SOOO Damaging! Your #1 job right now is to protect your kids!!!!! No sacrifice is to big to make sure they have a NORMAL life. THAT IS YOUR JOB AS A MAN NOW:)