Sarabethy: I don't know why my body takes over like this, because I'm the kind of person who's not afraid to talk to anyone.
It's an indoctrinated phobia.
Here are some links to resources that might help you understand this psychological phenomenon with the goal of reducing and eventually eliminating it entirely:
- Cults of hatred - American Psychological Association
- Overcoming Religious Indoctrination - Atheist Foundation of Australia
- Phobia Indoctrination: Ex-Mormons
- Hassan's "Unlocking Phobias" chapter in his new book "Freedom of Mind"
- Understanding Watchtower Phobias - Freeminds.org
I hope this helps!
jp