I left the watchtower when I left home at age 19. But truly I was leaving in my heart by the time I was 15. I was never babtized. But the teaching from the watchtower lingered with me for several years. I always held faith in God but I could never accept the full doctrine of the JWs. My whole family is still neck deep in the watchtower. I was never shunned since I was never actually a publisher, I practically shunned them... Ironically my family was hurt and offended by this.
Anyway I got married at age 20 to a young woman who was raised Catholic. About two years into it we were having some real problems. She wanted a divorce. I didn't know what to do. A highschool friend was in town that year between his bachelor's and master degrees. His dad was a pastor. I went to their house after my wife gave me her "goodbye" letter. I told them what was happening. His dad told me that I needed Jesus, and he asked me if I wanted to know Jesus. I said yes.
At that point in my life I had had faith, but I never really knew faith. I cried out to heaven like never before, i begged God to save my marriage. And I can tell you what happened.... I am still married to the same woman now almost 14 years with three beautiful daughters.
Though I went through some tough times, it was traumatic to unlearn much of the watchtower teachings. For the first time I was face to face with the lies of the watchtower. Before I was not so keenly aware, I had just left not looking back. Now as I looked back and the lies were revealed I felt a lot of anger.
I'm sharing my story to encourage you to hold on to your faith. Know that beliefs take time to form and they define who we are faith is rooted at or deepest place. When an entity like the watchtower abuses people's faith it hurts us so deeply. What you are feeling is normal. It may surprise you that you are just now having thoughts about old beliefs again. Maybe fear over current events and your future, I don't know. But this is very natural, the beliefs don't just disappear you will need to replace them with something pure otherwise it continue to fester.
Keep going, I just want to say that God is real and really cares about you and who you are.