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  by Akid48 in

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  in my kingdom hall people see me as rude but to me i dont understand how.for me having to talk to adults is not bad but for me its one thing if i dont know you and so i have my guard up at all times and i have a fuck off tone in my voice.but some of the brothers seem they like kids to much.. one more thing i have the a fuck off tone some times is because a lot of brothers i kinda know (hint kinda know) ask me about my school life.what i mean is not ''hey how's school?

  '' i mean and im not joking when i say i have been asked.

  ''so have you had to turn down any girls yet?

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  Note the brother who asked me that did it in a very public place not the best place.
  
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  by Akid48 in

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  in my kingdom hall people see me as rude but to me i dont understand how.for me having to talk to adults is not bad but for me its one thing if i dont know you and so i have my guard up at all times and i have a fuck off tone in my voice.but some of the brothers seem they like kids to much.. one more thing i have the a fuck off tone some times is because a lot of brothers i kinda know (hint kinda know) ask me about my school life.what i mean is not ''hey how's school?

  '' i mean and im not joking when i say i have been asked.

  ''so have you had to turn down any girls yet?

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  In my kingdom hall people see me as rude but to me i dont understand how.For me having to talk to adults is not bad BUT for me its one thing if i DONT KNOW YOU and so i have my guard up at all times and i have a fuck off tone in my voice.But some of the brothers seem they like kids to much.

  One more thing i have the a fuck off tone some times is because a lot of brothers i kinda know (hint kinda know) ask me about my school life.what i mean is not ''hey how's school?'' i mean and im not joking when i say i have been asked.''So have you had to turn down any girls yet?'' etc those are things i dont share if i dont fully know you not just talk to you.

  i use that one have you had to turn down any girls yet its because i have had to turn down one a girl i had a crush on.Note i was not awake at the time.

  well i made this because i need to get more things off my chest.

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  has any one had this feeling

  by Akid48 in

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  i remember having this feeling when i was younger that something was off when it came to meetings and the people there seemed just off.i had feelings like that when i was like 5 or 6 and i would say i was kinda dumb back then but still i had a feeling like that when i would not have that often.still to this day i dont know what got me to have that feeling i was just wanting to know if any had this feeling to and still cant remember what made your mind give you a red flag..

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  @sorry

  Oh my god you hit the jackpot my family members get mad if I zone out I'm a kid I don't think the Kingdom Hall is a boring place in most kids eyes.
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  has any one had this feeling

  by Akid48 in

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  i remember having this feeling when i was younger that something was off when it came to meetings and the people there seemed just off.i had feelings like that when i was like 5 or 6 and i would say i was kinda dumb back then but still i had a feeling like that when i would not have that often.still to this day i dont know what got me to have that feeling i was just wanting to know if any had this feeling to and still cant remember what made your mind give you a red flag..

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  @schnufti

  im so glad that you talked about the fake smiles to be real for me you have to say somthing funny etc to make me smile i can never fake smile and some people make it seem like im wired for it but to me it creeps me out.and your right me and my brother get ask WHEN are you getting baptized not if.
  
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  has any one had this feeling

  by Akid48 in

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  i remember having this feeling when i was younger that something was off when it came to meetings and the people there seemed just off.i had feelings like that when i was like 5 or 6 and i would say i was kinda dumb back then but still i had a feeling like that when i would not have that often.still to this day i dont know what got me to have that feeling i was just wanting to know if any had this feeling to and still cant remember what made your mind give you a red flag..

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  @summerAngel

  trust me only my close friends now that i live with jws and when i say something they get sad.They understand even being kids they know that whats going in a jw type life is not right.

  @flipper

  Man that sucks i dont know how my mind would deal with your dad i have bad for you man
  
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  Update: My current situation

  by Issa in

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  it's been about two months since i stopped attending meetings, came to the conclusion that the org is not the truth, and i'm currently dealing with some problems since leaving the org.

  i want to discuss these problems and hopefully get helpful advice.. discovering the truth about ourselves is a lifetime's work, but it's worth the effort - fred rogers.

  my current situation in this: i faded and hold off on writing a disassociation letter.

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  i want to say when it comes to your dad dont talk to the elders dont.Now right as im typeing this my family knows that i dont like the jw thing any more and every day i have to deal with my family members telling me to talk to the elders.From what i know its your doom dont.
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  has any one had this feeling

  by Akid48 in

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  i remember having this feeling when i was younger that something was off when it came to meetings and the people there seemed just off.i had feelings like that when i was like 5 or 6 and i would say i was kinda dumb back then but still i had a feeling like that when i would not have that often.still to this day i dont know what got me to have that feeling i was just wanting to know if any had this feeling to and still cant remember what made your mind give you a red flag..

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  @Virgochik

  i have to say the vibes for me is still odd i have to say im a person that didnt have anxiety but now i have it.it sucks to i love talking to friends hanging out but now before i do i get a good mouth full of anxiety for many things.One more thing is i dont sleep the best so when i have to go to meeting and go pass the time i go to sleep for school.I burn out before i get half way done with the school day.when it comes to people there is one brother i think 50 or 60 years old and lets say it seems you likes kids a little to much if you get what im saying.
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  has any one had this feeling

  by Akid48 in

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  2. experiences

  i remember having this feeling when i was younger that something was off when it came to meetings and the people there seemed just off.i had feelings like that when i was like 5 or 6 and i would say i was kinda dumb back then but still i had a feeling like that when i would not have that often.still to this day i dont know what got me to have that feeling i was just wanting to know if any had this feeling to and still cant remember what made your mind give you a red flag..

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  @finkelstein

  oh man trust me when it came to my brother for college HE GOT RAINED WITH the the system is going to end so why go for more than 2 years?
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  has any one had this feeling

  by Akid48 in

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  i remember having this feeling when i was younger that something was off when it came to meetings and the people there seemed just off.i had feelings like that when i was like 5 or 6 and i would say i was kinda dumb back then but still i had a feeling like that when i would not have that often.still to this day i dont know what got me to have that feeling i was just wanting to know if any had this feeling to and still cant remember what made your mind give you a red flag..

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  Akid48

  i remember having this feeling when i was younger that something was off when it came to meetings and the people there seemed just off.I had feelings like that when i was like 5 or 6 and i would say i was kinda dumb back then but still i had a feeling like that when i would not have that often.Still to this day i dont know what got me to have that feeling i was just wanting to know if any had this feeling to and still cant remember what made your mind give you a red flag.
  
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  Well this is bad

  by Akid48 in

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  so like a week or 2 ago i got mad a my bible teacher and we started to debate a little.look i now that was a dumb move but im not a the best point in my life and my angry is not in the best control.

  so little did i know i had a family member was listening.

  so the family worship we had turned to convince me that the jw life is the best life.. after that my life is turning into shit as of now i have been having depression and now its 2x as bad..

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  @scratchme1010

  it hard to love them when i get treated like shit because i dont have the same view point on jws

  what i mean by that is being dicks when i talk to them etc nothing super bad