SunshineToo-
I did talk to her over the phone and I cried harder than I ever have before, but to no avail. My father is an elder and my brother an MS and she's very active. I just don't think there is much hope. But I put it all on her shoulders, I feel no regret. Plus I'm moving to Orlando and right now we live only a few blocks from her in Kansas. Maybe the distance will help to heal my pain.