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  So tired of grief

  by Sirona in

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  hiya everyone,.

  the thing is, i'm so tired of grieving.

  it seems like i've grieved for so long.

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  I just don't know that grief really ever goes away for good. Though it may not be as often as it once was, it lingers, waiting to storm in with a "Hello, remember me?" The moments still come to me, and I have to let it confront me, feel it, and release the pain that exists for that time.

  this has been my experience, also, LonelySheep. I think, with time, it has a bittersweet quality to it........time dulls the sharp edges, but, it will always be part of your memory.........Sirona, introspection is a good thing, I think. It makes us deeper people.

  Terri
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  So tired of grief

  by Sirona in

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  hiya everyone,.

  the thing is, i'm so tired of grieving.

  it seems like i've grieved for so long.

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  Memories of times past and people past who have meant alot to us...........I've been going through that stuff lately too..........and, even though my mom is okay right now.............I am carrying a ball of grief around knowing the day will come that I will get that call that she has passed over..........I can already feel the pain of it............I've been reminiscing about old friends from my dub years too, lately and I think about my grandparents who died.........lots of stuff that for years I put on hold to just deal with life day to day because that was hard enough...........am I making any sense? LOL...........love you Sirona!!
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  So tired of grief

  by Sirona in

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  hiya everyone,.

  the thing is, i'm so tired of grieving.

  it seems like i've grieved for so long.

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  (((Sirona))) Must be something in the aether today...........I know exactly what you mean..........and it is a psychological fact that your subconscious does know when it can pop these little moments on you........I've had my own share of PTSD dreams and grieving dreams........I have a recurring one that I find myself back at a meeting or an assembly and I hate it and I hate that I don't just stand up and walk out the door. It's that powerlessness in the dream that really gets to me........knowing what I know in my waking moments, and yet, in my dreams I'm not taking a stand against what I know is dead wrong for me. As painful as it is, though, the best thing I've found is to just let that grief out. Be with it. Using alcohol to medicate pain, or trying to forget it is not going to make it go away.........maybe for the moment, but, it's still bubbling away under the surface..........I find writing helps (check out my fat bitch thread) to release the built up emotions. Tears are good, also. It has to be expressed.

  Terri
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  New guy from Toronto

  by Martyn in

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  new guy from toronto.

  just enjoying the posts.

  i haven't been to a meeting in years, i was baptisted 1990. it seems like yesterday.

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  Welcome, Marty..........join the mismatched, but very cheerful group here!!
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  WHAT MAKES YOU GLAD TO BE ALIVE.............?

  by vitty in

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  i live quite a mundane and often boring life..................due to circumstances beyond my control,.

  but a few times a week i think "im so glad im alive "..............its usually when i take the dog out for a walk and see the lovely enviroment that im blessed to live in.. but today we fixed some lights up round the garden and now its gone dark finally ( 12pm).

  they look so beautiful, i was stunned, a photo couldnt capture it.

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  that I am free to think my own thoughts, live my own life, not drag out to a meeting every other night, knock on doors and harrass my poor neighbors, read any book I want, watch ANY movie I want, and make my OWN mind up about my OWN life choices. life is wonderful.

  Terri
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  Time is their enemy

  by LDH in

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  tick, tick, tick.. the governing body is dying one by one, faster now.. young people who thought they would never see themselves getting old now take meds for cholesterol, alzheimers, diabetes, blood pressure.. the end isn't here.. tick, tick, tick.. kids who walked away from the wt after being warned that they would die like a dog in the streets instead are very successful young people with real jobs, families, and assets.. empty threats stop having an effect.

  apathy sets in.

  automatons attend the meetings.

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  my thoughts, exactly, Lisa. see my thread on an old friend called.........we just sit back and let the WTS F**CK themselves. <--------Cheshire Cat Grin
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  it's gone

  by arrowstar in

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  ...all in the name of progress.. the apartment complex where i live was originally condos but over time are now apartments.

  it's my understanding that they were built back in the real estate boom of the mid-80s...say 1984. as time passes, things are in need or repair and/or replacement.

  it's just a fact of life.

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  my heart aches for you AND your tree, Arrow. One thing that hurts my and my BF's heart is to see a tree either cut or knocked down.........we both love our tree people........can you get a BIG pot and buy a tree to put in it? Even some nice evergreen bushes in small planters would be nice............
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  Prediction of large drop in JW numbers in 2014

  by VM44 in

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  i am going to make the prediction, here and now in mid 2006, that there will be a significant drop in the number of jehovah's witnesses in the year 2014, the one hundredth anniversary of 1914.. the only way this drop in numbers might be avoided is if the watchtower society can think up some way to stir up the rank and file and get them motivated to do more, like they did with the 1975 fiasco.. .

  i doubt very much that the watchtower magazine is going to proclaim loudly in the year 2014 anything about the "generation of 1914" not passing away.. --vm44

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  I doubt very much that the Watchtower magazine is going to proclaim loudly in the year 2014 anything about the "generation of 1914" not passing away.

  VM.........they already disabled that doctrine by changing it in '95. Most who remain in will chant the mantra "we don't serve Jehovah with a date in mind"........'til they hypnotize themselves.

  Terri
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  Early menopause

  by MsMcDucket in

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  i just found out today that i'm in menopause.

  i haven't had a menstrual cycle in over a year.

  here's my dilemma?

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  Jeez I think I got mAnapause

  ya know somethin'? you may.........are you peeing alot lately, but stop and start.....losing your hair on your head, but finding it growing inside and along the outside of your ears........nose hairs hanging outta your nose...........and eyebrows going wild...........well, that and other things are a man's mAnapause.........lol.........oh, and in the morning is your best time for sex, cuz you wake up already primed...............of course, there's always viagra......
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  Overheard: the Witnesses I know react to the Cano incident

  by under_believer in

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  presented for your perusal, horror, and edification.

  i take no responsibility for these statements--they are the verbatim comments of people that i know.

  i find my wife's comment heartening, since it implies that she knows that elders are not necessarily spirit-directed.

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  I shared it, against my mom's will, so, am I a monster? I feel I should allow her her beliefs.........she's terminally ill...............but, being a witness, even though considered very spiritually weak by the mainstream.........she is the ideal to which I strive...........intensely spiritual, open minded, extremely psychic.........knowing the weaknesses of the organization, she still clings to Jehovah and the brothers.