Having been a "one" who was going to change for the same reason (plus lots of other BS I won't go into) I can say that it seems that the cliques show "love" among themselves but not so much to others.
Thats why they arent supposed to have cliques but it happens anyway. There is very little real love in the bORG, consider yourself fortunate if you were able to experience it there.
you obviously are not an elder or immediate family thereof. they get alot of attention.
i stopped showing love when I realized the truth about this org and the deliberate lies and false teachings and cover ups.
try spending less time at a KH, your stress levels will go down.