"and just maybe my being on this board and others that I started with was my and still is my therapy"
This smiddy3^^^.
I was born in and it took many years after leaving before the final shackles fell.
I can attest that falling asleep as a toddler on the day bed provided at the back of the K Hall is not good for mental/emotional health. All that crap of multi headed beasts and eternal destruction at Armageddon and Gehennah's fiery lake does not make good bedtime stories for infants! I am sixty years old now so you old timers will know the length of meetings and the crap they used to serve up (probably still do) back in the day.
All good now thanks to supportive wife and friends and a few years membership on sites like this.
Thank you to all the apostate internet community! It has been good therapy for me.