Posts by Jrjw

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Very Lost

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hi i've been a jw for 12 years and got married 2 years ago.

i'm now separated.

my husband hid from me that he suffered from depression, extreme anxiety issues and a personality disorder.

I very much believe in God but I knew almost nothing about the bible when I started tudying with jws And believed what I was taught coz I was shown from the bible And I was only 22. I've decided I'm going to go right back to basics and study each bible teaching not using just jw literature and compare scriptures using a few bible's. I'll see what truths I come to doing that

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Very Lost

by Jrjw in

hi i've been a jw for 12 years and got married 2 years ago.

i'm now separated.

my husband hid from me that he suffered from depression, extreme anxiety issues and a personality disorder.

Jrjw

My daughter who's 12 has been asking me about divorcing him and if I'm allowed to remarry and it's hard to answer her coz I'm confused myself lol. She hates my husband and saw things she should never have seen

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Very Lost

by Jrjw in

hi i've been a jw for 12 years and got married 2 years ago.

i'm now separated.

my husband hid from me that he suffered from depression, extreme anxiety issues and a personality disorder.

Jrjw

Like I said in a previous post i have a lot of thinking to do and some big decisions to make about where my future lies. As long as I stay in the truth he's always going to think he can make me get back together with him coz he says i don't have a choice coz we're married and have to stay together no matter what.

I can't get back with him even though we have a son coz I'll end up having a break down or having my own mental health problems in the future coz of him and I won't put my kids through all the mental torture off him again. I don't want to stay on my own either I want to be in a happy loving respectful relationship so I kind of can guess which route I'll end up going down already. I've been questioning the truth for a long time but More so after things I've been told off elders and other sisters about having to put up with abuse. I can't imagine a loving God could stand to see someone so unhappy coz of a bad marriage mate and expect them just to live with it. There are other doctrines that have nn's questioning the truth too especially Deuteronomy 18:20-22.

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Very Lost

by Jrjw in

hi i've been a jw for 12 years and got married 2 years ago.

i'm now separated.

my husband hid from me that he suffered from depression, extreme anxiety issues and a personality disorder.

Jrjw

In July just before i separated from him he said I was married to him now And had to get over his lies and just put up with him And get on with it coz couldn't get divorced

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Very Lost

by Jrjw in

hi i've been a jw for 12 years and got married 2 years ago.

i'm now separated.

my husband hid from me that he suffered from depression, extreme anxiety issues and a personality disorder.

Jrjw

You can't properly get to know someone in the truth coz you can't be on your Own with them. We were married in 7 months but i sort of knew him for 2 years before that and he was friendly and seemed a good person. I didn't know he'd been lying about himself to make out he was The right person for me The saying is true that you don't know someone til you live with them lol. I had people asking after 3 months when we were getting married. I'm stupid coz i saw a few wrong things he did before we got married and when i spoke to him about them he said he's no really like that and was just stressed with sorting the wedding out. I wish I'd gone with my instincts but i put my doubts down to normal nerves about getting married. How's wrong i was!

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Very Lost

by Jrjw in

hi i've been a jw for 12 years and got married 2 years ago.

i'm now separated.

my husband hid from me that he suffered from depression, extreme anxiety issues and a personality disorder.

Jrjw

Pale.emperor - I know it was abuse. I felt like i was being emotionally and mentally tortured. If he did something wrong and i was upset he had a way of twisting things so that I ended up being the one in the wrong And I started feeling like i was going crazy coz I wasn't allowed to be affected by what he was doing

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Very Lost

by Jrjw in

hi i've been a jw for 12 years and got married 2 years ago.

i'm now separated.

my husband hid from me that he suffered from depression, extreme anxiety issues and a personality disorder.

Jrjw

Scratchme1010 - a lot more has gone on other than him just suffering with mental health problems. His first wife slit her wrists when she was married to him and when she finally left him she said she'd rather die at Armageddon than be with him. He's an absolute nightmare to deal with and changed to a different person the same day i married him. I've been grabbed and pushed and stopped from leaving the house and going to see my family plus many other things. He lied constantly, he gambled, was argumentative all the time and would look for anything to argue about no matter how petty. I'm by no means claiming i was a perfect jw wife coz once i got to the end of my tether(which takes a lot) i would shout back at him or say really horrible things. I would try to go out for walks to cool off but he'd follow me or text and ring non stop or he'd block me from leaving the house. He emotionally blackmailed me all the time to make me feel like nothing and was so negative and demanding that he sucked the life out of me so I stopped enjoying life. I was bullied from day one And everyone has a breaking point. There was no love on his part at all, think he just wanted sex And for a woman to cook and clean For him.

The reason I said I'm gonna be stuck on my own is coz he says I have no grounds for separation or divorce by the truths standards. I'm treated differently by people in the congregation coz I've separated from him and they don't know the details they just go by Jehovah's standard on staying together no matter what

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Very Lost

by Jrjw in

hi i've been a jw for 12 years and got married 2 years ago.

i'm now separated.

my husband hid from me that he suffered from depression, extreme anxiety issues and a personality disorder.

Jrjw

Sorry my posts are so long I'm just venting off my frustration

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Very Lost

by Jrjw in

hi i've been a jw for 12 years and got married 2 years ago.

i'm now separated.

my husband hid from me that he suffered from depression, extreme anxiety issues and a personality disorder.

Jrjw

I don't feel like i can talk to my jw friends anymore either about it coz they always steer the conversation back to us getting back together in the future coz it's Jehovah's way. That's even with them knowing what's gone on. They just say Jehovah will judge him for what he's done and i have to keep myself right In Jehovah's eyes by staying together through it all. How is it fair that I'm expected to live in a nightmare coz my husband lied to get me to marry him and he can't behave properly yet I'm expected to be quiet and suffer and live in misery the rest of my life?

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Very Lost

by Jrjw in

hi i've been a jw for 12 years and got married 2 years ago.

i'm now separated.

my husband hid from me that he suffered from depression, extreme anxiety issues and a personality disorder.

Jrjw

Yes I'm financially able to get by. I have no friends in the world though they're all witnesses. None of my family are in the truth. All of my worldly friends disappeared when I became a jw lol. I never thought I'd be in the situation im in by marrying a jw. He doesn't respect women at all, the amount of times he said to me "he's supposed to be the head" when he wasn't getting his own way. A couple of days after I separated I was walking along the street with the wind on my face And I felt totally free and like a weight had been lifted off my shoulders, it was such a nice feeling. I'm sick of comments off well meaning brothers and sisters saying that things will work out for us in time. They don't know what I've been through and I'm not going to go around telling everyone coz I'm not like that and its none of their business anyway lol. I'm at a crossroads in my life now and have some serious thinking to do on where my life is heading next coz I'm not happy in the truth and don't know if I'll be happy out of it either coz it's been my life for 12 years