I personally have no time for someone who is PIMO and still willing to serve as an elder. That is perpetuating the cult abuse on the congregation. You might think you are ‘one of the good ones’. Every single elder who has ever left has consoled themselves with that paper thin self delusional excuse. If you are an elder your sole job is to enforce the rules on others - dress, grooming, attendance, field service, inability to go to university or pursue a career, chastity, fidelity, monogamy, blood transition, abortion, etc
You might be a lovely elder who has let your own kids go to college to learn something that would half support them in the real world but the rest of the congregation don’t know you think it’s all shit. They are busy making sure they don’t do anything that triggers a judicial committee - that you will in all probability be on.
And you remain inside the system because you have things to lose that you are unwilling to lose. That people more courageous and honest than you are willing to be disfellowshiped for and lose everything.
You would rather keep whatever it is you are scared to lose and be an enforcer on everyone else.
PIMO elder, my arse. Cowardly concentration camp guard who wants to plead at the end ‘but I was nice and I didn’t really believe it’.