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  My son contemplates suicide.

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  my 14 year old son, benjamin, confided in me last night that he almost tried to commit suicide this week, he felt so low.. he has been brought up as a jw by his mum all his short life and until recently totally believed all the crap.

  although he has not been baptised yet he expressed the desire to pioneer and go to bethel.. then, in the past few months, he suddenly woke up and smelt what he was shovelling.. my son is an extremely gregarious, likable boy with lots of friends in the congregation.

  he is always invited to the get-togethers etc.

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  I can also attest first hand to the emotional blackmail we endured as witnesses. When I was a teenager, I seriously considered leaving. My mother caught wind of my feelings and told me that because my father was the presiding elder and she was a regular pioneer, I had to set an example for the other kids in the congregation. She said if I left, it could very easily cause other kids to leave, and then their blood would be on my hands in God's eyes! I would be held responsible for other people's decisions! Talk about a guilt trip. And it worked too. Later, after I had left the Witnesses, my dad died. My mother "requested" that I not attend the memorial service. I honored her request. A few months later, I traveled to my hometown to check on my mom to see how she was doing. At first, she tried not to acknowledge that I was standing there. Finally, she broke down and said she wished I was dead, then she would be able to handle "her" loss of her son better than knowing I was still out there, displeasing God. Boy if that didn't make me feel good! My son recently told me (he's 21) that he is getting away from the witnesses. He was never baptized. He said he just felt like he never fit in anywhere in the congregation for as long as he could remember. My daughter, on the other hand, (she's 17) is very stronly entrenched, yet cannot stand her mother and new step dad. So she took the only way out she knew how - she just got married a few months ago. It is truly sad what the witnesses put their kids though! I only hope that more of them start having doubts enough to do something about it. I think as more time goes on and the end doesn't arrive, more people will begin to see the light.