I am interested in doing a podcast interview but I'm also really nervous about it lol. Do you guys think it would be inappropriate or a misuse of trust if I started a blog first before heading straight into a book?
Ft2188
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My story and what I'm trying to do with it
by Ft2188 inmy dad was an elder my entire life and my sister a regular pioneer for most of my life, along with my mother.
ill never forget being 4 years old and staring up at the stars outside and my dad leaning over to and saying "look what jehovah made for you".
my response, "but how do you know god is real"?
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My story and what I'm trying to do with it
by Ft2188 inmy dad was an elder my entire life and my sister a regular pioneer for most of my life, along with my mother.
ill never forget being 4 years old and staring up at the stars outside and my dad leaning over to and saying "look what jehovah made for you".
my response, "but how do you know god is real"?
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Ft2188
The invention of the internet was the greatest help in the demise of the witnesses.
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My story and what I'm trying to do with it
by Ft2188 inmy dad was an elder my entire life and my sister a regular pioneer for most of my life, along with my mother.
ill never forget being 4 years old and staring up at the stars outside and my dad leaning over to and saying "look what jehovah made for you".
my response, "but how do you know god is real"?
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Wow, I didn't expect such feedback. This is great. Thank you everyone for the encouragement. I don't ever feel like a victim, at least not anymore. In all honesty, I have such a loving and happy life now that the girl in my story doesn't even feel like me anymore. I've learned so much about myself along the way and I've had to get to know myself in a more honest way and I've learned that I do not go down without a fight. I am strong and resilient as are all of you. We may have differing stories but we have so much in common as well. I'm so happy I stumbled upon this site.
to answer OnTheWayOut, yes that is basically what I'm looking for along with the story of their personal journey. To demonstrate pain and loss sure, but mostly to show human resilience. That we aren't these evil creatures that the society has made us out to be. It doesn't have to be a family member. A friend, an elder, a pioneer sister. There seems to always be that one person we left behind that still pulls at our heart strings.
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My story and what I'm trying to do with it
by Ft2188 inmy dad was an elder my entire life and my sister a regular pioneer for most of my life, along with my mother.
ill never forget being 4 years old and staring up at the stars outside and my dad leaning over to and saying "look what jehovah made for you".
my response, "but how do you know god is real"?
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We let these opportunities slip by because we are conditioned by our fears. They were, after all, ingrained in us pretty deeply. But if we can rise above our fears and be a little more bold then maybe it would help so many others.
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My story and what I'm trying to do with it
by Ft2188 inmy dad was an elder my entire life and my sister a regular pioneer for most of my life, along with my mother.
ill never forget being 4 years old and staring up at the stars outside and my dad leaning over to and saying "look what jehovah made for you".
my response, "but how do you know god is real"?
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Ft2188
Thanks everyone for be kind words! If any of you have suggestions on ways to move forward with the project, I would love to hear your thoughts or maybe even your letters one day. :)
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My story and what I'm trying to do with it
by Ft2188 inmy dad was an elder my entire life and my sister a regular pioneer for most of my life, along with my mother.
ill never forget being 4 years old and staring up at the stars outside and my dad leaning over to and saying "look what jehovah made for you".
my response, "but how do you know god is real"?
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Ft2188
Thanks for the encouragement. I figured if I'm asking others to open their hearts with me through a personal letter, then I should be willing to do the same and share my story.
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My story and what I'm trying to do with it
by Ft2188 inmy dad was an elder my entire life and my sister a regular pioneer for most of my life, along with my mother.
ill never forget being 4 years old and staring up at the stars outside and my dad leaning over to and saying "look what jehovah made for you".
my response, "but how do you know god is real"?
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Ft2188
I get excited and want to go back to school and get a degree but at be same time I fell bogged down by feeling too old or too out of touch with school to even try. Instead of "thanks Obama" I'll go with "thanks jw" lol
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My story and what I'm trying to do with it
by Ft2188 inmy dad was an elder my entire life and my sister a regular pioneer for most of my life, along with my mother.
ill never forget being 4 years old and staring up at the stars outside and my dad leaning over to and saying "look what jehovah made for you".
my response, "but how do you know god is real"?
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i was raised a JW, my mom, dad and sister along with me. my dad was an elder my entire life and my sister a regular pioneer for most of my life, along with my mother. ill never forget being 4 years old and staring up at the stars outside and my dad leaning over to and saying "look what Jehovah made for you". my response, "but how do you know God is real"? my mother said she knew then i would be trouble. i never fit in with the rest of my family, spiritually speaking. i fought it my entire life. when i was 16 i met the man that I would later go on to marry. he was 22 and also raised a witness but non-practicing like me. i turned 18 and we got married as if often the case with young witnesses. a year late he told me we would be going back to meetings and even though i said i didnt want to, as he put it, he was the "head of the family" and i had to do as he said. fast forward to 6 years later and me giving being a real witness the first real try in my life. he was an MS, i was on my way to becoming a regular pioneer. i had been expressing my loneliness, my doubts for years and he would always brush me off. one day, like a like switch, i knew i was done. There was no talking me out of this. no amount of prayers or elders meetings would change my mind. We knew we didnt want to be married to each other but as is JW law, youre still bound until someone commits adultery. he point blank asked me to do this for him. my husband of 6 years just asked me to cheat on him so he can one day remarry. i concocted some false story of my adultery, which none of the elders bought but who was going to argue? i was kicked out from my home with my husband and moved in with my parents who after a week of trying to get me to change my mind and come back, decided that was enough of an attempt and promptly kicked me out of their home. i had $500 to my name,no job(my boss fired me because he was an elder in my congregation that i worked for) no friends and nowhere to go. i lived out of my car for about 6 months. No schooling to fall back on because on top of everything my parents pulled me out of 7th grade because they saw me hold a worldly boys hand. So I was starting from scratch. i would work at a large 24 hour gym where i would shower and change work until 4 then drive to my next job which i would work until 4 am and repeat the process over. one day i met a girl at work who knew me for a week and found out i was living out of my car and offered to let me live with her. the single most kindest thing anyone has ever done for me. she saved my life and we have been best friends ever since. 5 years later, i now have a great group of loving and loyal friends and family (isnt always blood) including my 1 year old son.
I recently started a book project as a way to help myself heal and potentially others as well. I also wanted to have an easy way to explain to my son one day as to why none of my family are in our lives. I started with a letter to my mother, my goodbye letter if you will, of everything I wanted to say but didn't get a chance to. So now,Between Facebook, Reddit and forums I listen to stories of those who have left or are thinking of leaving and ask if they would be willing to share their story and their letter to the family member or friend they had to leave behind. I've received great feedback and it seems to be helping others as much as it helped me. I'm hoping through this book, that if enough people can see. E pain and damage this "religion" causes then maybe I can help to wake more up and show others what it really means to be part of this "religion".
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Forgotten letters
by Ft2188 ini've recently started a book project for my own personal healing and as a way to explain to my son when he's older as to why my family isn't in our lives.
if you could say all the things you wanted to say to your mom, your dad, sister, brother, best friend, what would you say?
i want to show our struggles and pains but also our triumphs in life.
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I've recently started a book project for my own personal healing and as a way to explain to my son when he's older as to why my family isn't in our lives. now I'm looking to you for help. If you could say all the things you wanted to say to your mom, your dad, sister, brother, best friend, what would you say? I want to show our struggles and pains but also our triumphs in life. I think it brings us together and strengthens us. I'd anyone is willing to share and contribute, I would love to hear from you. Even if you Jair need someone to talk to.
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Tell me what you think
by Ft2188 ini left 5 years ago and even though i've had therapy and have been medicated somehow, something from the last creeps up on me.
i started writing a book, mostly for my own healing.
i wrote a letter to my parents of everything i had wanted to say but knew i wouldn't get a chance to.
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I left 5 years ago and even though I've had therapy and have been medicated somehow, something from the last creeps up on me. I started writing a book, mostly for my own healing. I wrote a letter to my parents of everything I had wanted to say but knew I wouldn't get a chance to. I started going to local ex-JW meetup groups and after having everyone share their stories I'd ask if they would like to write a letter for my book as well. I can't describe how healing it's been. To hear others struggles and triumphs. My question is, would it be considered inappropriate to ask forums like this for willing participants to send me their letters? I would keep everything anonymous if requested. Thanks for your input!