6. You need your faith (Christian) - but where do you go?
This is the point i am at right now.
I echo Vidiot in what he says, but I'd like to add that maybe what needs to be addressed is the need for you to "go somewhere". What need do you have that you feel that the WT fulfills for you, to the point that you are willing to abide all their nonsense they say? What's more, is that need in fact being fulfilled, and if it is, is it worth giving up your life, your career, your healthcare, your capacity to think and decide things for yourself?
Look at what the WT expect people to give up for them. Instead of looking for a place to go, look for the feeling you need to address that makes you want to look for something that the WT.