Since then I have been wondering whether to attend the meetings just for the hell of it. The elders there and others (mainly men) who were uncomfortable with my presence and made it difficult for me until they drove me out. I hated the fact that they would be satisfied about it. I don't want to get reinstated I would just like to attend meetings and show them they have no power over me and I can be there if I want to. Thoughts please?
I'd say that life is too short and the world is way bigger than those congregation idiots. Forgive yourself for allowing yourself getting sucked into that nonsense and move on. You will be feeding into their nonsense (and it's all nonsense) simply to end up with them displaying power over you. You are never going to be able to make your point for as long as you are an outsider.
The JW POS's that attempted at doing that with me (talking among themselves and giggling as I passed by) were confronted with quite a few encounters with me. Every time that one of them saw me and star talking I'd go to them and ask them if there's anything they have to say to me or about me. I always got silence from them, and they got the message that they are nobodies.
It's not a bad thing that they see you and cross to the other side of the street. They are not running away from you; they are running away into their own stupid little bubble that gives them comfort. You represent all the things they feel inadequate about. Never forget that.
There are plenty of loving people out there, plenty of places to go where you can be accepted, and plenty of things to do to use your time wisely instead of getting sucked into their miserable lives.