Was engaged to be married at 19 years old. Both families all supportive and gungho for us kids in love get married so we could be alone AT ALL together. In the final hour I backed out of getting married. I broke her heart. I felt so horrible. I couldnt just say I wanted to wait to get married and simply continue to drag her little brother everywhere as chaperone .
I got drunk. I smoked crack. I lost every thing and became homeless. Until I met a girl who had many major issues and she took a liking to me and her parents really liked me and her siblings befriended me. So I spent the next seven years wrapped up in that codependent drug centric life.
I just had ZERO self-esteem. All the while having a highly tuned sense of social grace. Everyone liked me. A well spoken basket case