CC we are all in the same boat - Both Mrs and I are trained muso's who put our careers on hold and lost .............well we will never know and will never be able to quantify . So start at this point now and give the remainder of your tenure on the planet the best you have got !
Currently our musical talents are directed toward helping people especially children living in disadvantaged drug and gangster riddled communities to find an escape via the arts - and the very act of touching lives on a daily basis is so rewarding !
Oft times we cannot even start the music activity with the children as they have suffered a trauma eg a child has been shot by stray bullets in a gang territory fight - and so you have to first heal broken spirits and then only can you get into the music part -!
Go out and touch lives !
Use your creative skill to make that difference !
https://youtu.be/3mR0ulMMw-w?t=6
Warning: The YouTube is very to the point !