Baptized in '79, I realized I was gay and left in '86. I returned in '91 and was more keenly aware of the "under currents" in play in the congregation. I, also, began questioning the Society's doctrine and eventually left in '97. Sadly, my spirituality was so wrecked that I distrusted all organized religion. I just now began to attend United Methodist services and, finally, recover some of my spirituality.