An abysmal failure on many levels. I couldn't punch myself out of the wet paper bag of JW mind control for over half a century. The talents I had and opportunities that came my way were wasted with the self-righteous smugness of "seeking first the kingdom". I passed the JW virus on to a son, who at 36 is just now recovering.
If you think I'm just lamenting missed financial opportunities, you would be wrong. That kind of success can greatly depend on which part of Earth you are born on. I regret allowing a phony religious cult to control every aspect of my life.
No, I'm not suicidal. Why would I voluntarily relinquish the few years I have left to live life not under Watchtower control?
Failure? Look it up in a good reference work. You'll see my picture.
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