i just need to vent,you see i was a born in.it's taken me 20 years after fading from the org to finally get my mind free from the wt dogma.i was on the phone with my aunt today and the subject of my mother her older sister came up.now mind you i haven't spoken to my mother in a month or so after my daughter stayed the weekend at her house and she was being tag teamed about the hall and how i took a vow to jehovah and i'm a failure and i'll be destroyed at armagedon.this exchange upset my daughter so much that she was near the point of tears when she returned home and she hasnt spoken to my mother or father since.anyway back to the conversation with my aunt,she let it slip that my mother told her that she wished she had let the seamen that fertilized the egg that produced me had slid down her legnno bear in mind i can remember as a child running into her room playing and she would say to me as a 7 year old child "i wished i had left you in oblivion"this is one of many such saying my mother had for me......i wasn't a bad child i just wasn't allowed to do anything such as going outside going over a friends house....etc,i have struggled for years as to why this woman hates me so.i got baptized at 15 really as a way of pleasing them what the hell does a child know at 15??
?granted it took me some time to get myself together and put those hurtful comments in the past,but today when my aunt let it slip about what my mother has said about me it was like pulling a scap off of a wound.my wife always complains about how im emotionless and distance,this was done by me as a way of protecting myself.so i've decided and i hate to say this that my christian god fearing parents...are dead to me there is no way i can have a relationship with people that are so wicked and since she never wanted me anyway....it works out for the best thx i just needed to vent i felt like i was going to pop..
20YearFader,
I'm sorry about your mother. I thought jgnat's reply to you was lovely and very sensible; I hope it gave you a little comfort.
It seems you have worked very hard and patiently to come to a certain acceptance of how your mother conducts her life - please keep it up, your strength will inspire others - & I'm sure there are plenty of them out there - grown-up now, but, like us, still affected by parents who were stultified, numbed, emotionally crippled, by the jw cult.
gorgia
how many here have heard such utter stupidity??.
several years ago, during field circus, i was covering a seldom-worked territory which was a community of mostly busy working class people who usually sprung out of their homes every saturday morning to do grocery shopping, run errands, etc.. only a few would start their saturday morning doing yard work washing their cars, walking their dogs, etc.. but we would frequently catch most of the house-holders on the way out, getting into their cars.. so, needless to say, the use of pamphlets was prevalent in that territory.. on that saturday morning, i mentioned to the elder who had been paired up with me that most of these people are so busy that they probably just toss these pamphlets in the trash without ever reading them.. his response to this was something like: "well i hope they're not doing that.
that would not be a good idea.".
I remember hearing this sort of insane prejudice a lot - I was told by my family that I must not befriend any of the children at school because they were all going to die in Armageddon. I'm sure plenty of people on this site heard the same growing up.
gorgia
took a peek at the new jw.org and soon got angry :(.
"witness patients often do better!".
how was i that dumb, are people that dumb?
Snare&Racket,
Thank you for your post, it is very clever. My grandfather (in his 70's) was dying of blood cancer and put off having a blood transfusion for years - but in the end he was so frightened of dying he accepted one. He was disf'd.
gorgia
hello everyone.. i grew up in the dauphin, mb congregation.
spent a couple years in my teens in the melita, mb one as well.. left 20 or so years ago and never been back.
now i live in winnipeg.. i imagine my story is typical.
HymieAli,
Hello! Thanks for your intro post. Books saved my sanity as a child too.
gorgia
introduction.
so here is the first part of my story as promised.
i apologise in advance because i know this is going to be much longer than it needs to be.
Hi 88JM,
Lovely to read Part 1.
gorgia
hi all because i am new on here.
i thought i would start a new thread well i didn't start a new thread my story went on the end of another thread.
sorry about that i have now learned how to navigate to start a new thread.. lozza.
Hi Lozza Aussie,
I'm from Perth. Welcome!
gorgia
i have had to make some very difficult decisions in recent days.
in one way i feel good about takeing care of myself and my mother who is on her dead bed in the room next to me.
mom has live with me since 2005 and started to make her journey to the other side on christmas day.
Roberta804,
Just checking you are ok?
x gorgia
hi everybody.. well, i've been lurking for a few weeks & have made a few posts, so it's time to bravely introduce myself some more.... i was raised in the religion, baptized & then df'd in 1992. i live in sydney and youll be pleased to hear i have survived armageddon (also known as the hottest day on record for sydney 45.6c).. ive never looked at any witness related stuff online, but my son showed me something about the conti case and i was so intrigued!!!!
following links led me to this & other websites..... since then i have spent literally hours on the internet discovering all this information.
so many late nights/early mornings.
Hi Pickler!
I'm from Perth. Welcome, I hope to read more from you. Keep researching!
gorgia
does it seem like a lot of new aussie posters lately?
glad to have them!
just wondering if the child abuse thing in oz has anything to do with it?.
carla,
Hi! I'm from Western Australia. I 'lurked' for a year or so, joined not long ago. The Royal Commission into institutional sexual abuse has been getting a lot of media attention. The findings won't be known for some time, but me and other ex-jw's I know are hoping very much justice will be served. Do you think active jw's will even read/watch about it?
gorgia
at youtube, search full album.
the beatles - unplugged [full album] .
the rolling stones - let it bleed (1969, remastered).
cantleave,
superb taste!
gorgia
