Alive. Thank you so very much for taking the time to share your insight.
The way you explained things is perfectly aligned with what her recent conduct has been.
"huge internal mental pressure", "haunted by fears of Satan's cunning", "mentally break the more sensitive". I suspected this is what was going on with her . It gives me a lot to think about.
I have seen all the signs of this. The almost frantic fear. At the same time we have a strong mutual desire for each other.
If her JW beliefs win out, then that will be the solution, game over.
As of now, I still would like to have her in my life in some way.
But that's a big moral responsibility. I don't want to play REAL God and get between God and her. Only God knows what path she needs to take.
But, I am really attracted to her spiritually and mentally. The physical is there too, but it's just like that's just part of the natural deal.
"mentally break the more sensitive". She is very intelligent and sensitive. I don't want my pursuing her to mess her up. We are almost like "twins", we're on the same wave length thought-wise. It's like all of life so far was just preparing us to meet at this time.
I had an older brother who had residual problems from the Vietnam era whom I took care of for 8 years. So a tiny bit of familiarity w/cognitive problems. Why would one voluntarily want to undertake such a thing. I don't know, I just feel a strong spiritual duty to help this gal.
I guess a lot people don't believe in God. I happen to be one who does. Couple weeks ago I was hurting over this and praying to God for help. He told me He will "give" her to me, but that I need to be patient. But, that could have just been my wishful thinking too.
Alive, thank you again so much. Your words really clarify how deep this thing is.
Any advice/insight etc. anyone can give will be sincerely appreciated!