LaurenM
"I'm just so dumb when it comes to non-JW guys."
I'm a guy. Guys are guys. When dealing w/them don't distinguish between JW and non-JW
It "takes two to tango". So, the first thing is you must honestly ask yourself if you were willingly seeking sexual experiences, or if you have what are apparently very low standards.
It's only my opinion. But, as a female you need to be much more careful. Sexually transmitted diseases are rampant. Especially if you are of child bearing age. Your health ,well-being, and future happiness are at stake.
Please, I'm not trying to be rude or judgmental, but didn't your parents or any sibling brother(s) teach you about boy-girl relationships?
There's a lot to be learned. So, if you have any decent guys (eg siblings, relatives, decent guy friends, etc) ask them to teach you about how guys think and for help in settings standards.
I know I tried to teach my sister and then later on I still continue to teach my daughter about guys.
My personal opinion is that a girl should not have sex with a guy unless she has first determined, over time, that this is a guy she could see herself as married to.
And, of course it goes without saying that you need to be using birth control measures.
You have been used and abused. Stop it, please. A truly decent guy would never have used you that way!
Good luck, change your ways.
Sincerely