Fresh Prince,
I remember you from the 2100 thread. An uncertain future is not an excuse to "check out". Are you married? You can PM me if you like. But I'm not a theropist. As far as your belifs, it's good to continue your journey to recovery.
While it is true, the (econimc) system demands eternal growth, and we live on a finite planet. But this could go on for a while. Check out Dimitry Orlov. He recomends we invest in each other. As in who do you know that will help you even if you don't give them any money, and vice versa. Another example is Joel Salatin, an incredable examle of positive action, with the whole system against him.
Just some thoughts,
Be well, try to think positive and hang tough.
HBH