Posts by Freeandclear

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Best pills meds or other to take before meeting?

by Crazyguy in

thought it would be good to share what ones take to deal with the meetings.

any Near death experiences any one can relate

by baker in

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qbkgj5j91he.

this is as close as it gets to the other side....

The subconscious mind is a very powerful thing. Our brain is constantly taking in a vast amount of information at all times and must decide which information to focus on. This is what we perceive to be reality. So when a person has a NDE and they are called NEAR DEATH for a reason, as in NOT dead..... the subconscious mind plays a lot of tricks on you.

About the seeing your body from a far. I've had this happen to me in dreams. It's not an uncommon thing to have a sort of "projection" where you are viewing yourself from another spot in the room. Completely normal experience and happens all the time. I've had this happen to me on at least two separate occasions during sleep where I thought I was awake but felt like I was disembodied and viewing myself from above or from across the room. In fact I was asleep in some sense, my physical eyes were seemingly open and I was looking around the room from my vantage point laying on my stomach then all of a sudden I was across the room about 4 feet off the ground viewing my body lying on the bed with a silver string or cord going from where I perceived myself to be over to my body on the bed.

This was merely a dream for I woke up and was back in my own real conscious body and for a moment I was paralyzed. This is known as sleep paralysis and is very very common. Chemicals in the brain are released during deep dreaming to prevent your body from acting out your dreams, this is scientific fact, not demon possession or something crazy like that.

My point here is that as another poster said, ALL near death experiences can be explained. None of them are the same thus pointing to "Unreality" and not one singular "Reality". It's nonsense.

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Going to listen in on the meeting today...just for fun

by Freeandclear in

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so real quick.

i'm df'd, also awake to ttott, no desire to go back but of course i still have unresolved issues.

so i think i'm going to listen in today just to see how things are at my old hall..... should be sickening....er i mean "encouraging"

Freeandclear

Okay so I got the new pin (same old number) and am going to listen in here for a bit, well as long as I can stomach it at least.

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Reply to Bugbear: Why I believe in the Bible

by Saved_JW in

[some words i corrected for spelling & grammer] .

"i have been studying the bible for almost 20 years....after graduating in history and science comparing to the the bible, i have have come to to the conclusion that the bible cannot give you any reason to believe in it at all.

so i wonder, why do you use the bible as facit to your believes?

Freeandclear

I used to think the bible was god's inspired word, partly because of the "wisdom" in such books as Proverbs and Psalms. However, I was a very young man then.

Now I'm 44 and to be honest, when reading through these books of the bible now, none of the "wisdom" found there seems to be "God given". Any human who lives a long life comes to certain conclusions about live and how to treat others. So in reality, ANY human who is a thinking person and pays attention to situations in his/her life and how his/her actions affect others will come to these same conclusions about "wisdom" as found in the bible.

I know I myself have come to my own conclusions about how to treat people with kindness and integrity, all on my own, it's been proven to my through my past failures, and I've seen those former ways of dealing with others as ineffective, thus my own "wisdom" came through and I now follow that course.

Thus now I see that none of the wisdom found in the bible is "God given" it's merely the normal conclusions of thoughtful older men.

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Notable changes of the JWs org, in the last five years or so

by glenster in

i've been updating the links at my web site and i'm working on the gtjbrooklyn pages now.

what would you say are the several biggest changesin the jws organization/rules in the last five years or so?

Freeandclear

Seriously? Comparing being ready to drive with being ready to dedicate your ENTIRE life to an Organization that will throw you away and ostracize you forever if you should ever disagree with them and you lose your whole family and social structure? COME ON! WAKE THE FUCK UP!

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Notable changes of the JWs org, in the last five years or so

by glenster in

i've been updating the links at my web site and i'm working on the gtjbrooklyn pages now.

what would you say are the several biggest changesin the jws organization/rules in the last five years or so?

Freeandclear

"he (Jehovah) must make you firm" ...... you know what makes me firm? Viagra.

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Reply to Bugbear: Why I believe in the Bible

by Saved_JW in

[some words i corrected for spelling & grammer] .

"i have been studying the bible for almost 20 years....after graduating in history and science comparing to the the bible, i have have come to to the conclusion that the bible cannot give you any reason to believe in it at all.

so i wonder, why do you use the bible as facit to your believes?

Freeandclear

Excellent thread, I'm in total agreement with Anders Andersen above. I do not hate God. I simply don't know if he exists or what he wants from me, and I desperately want to believe! I've asked him to reveal himself to me, to in essence "change me". I don't know how I could make it more clear to my what I desire in my heart.

I suppose that's why I find this site and everyone's comments so fascinating and why I continue to read here daily.

I want faith. I want to trust in God whomever he might be. I want to know the real "truth" but thus far no answers.

When I look around at the Earth I feel like someone had to have made this for me. When I see a sunset or sunrise or a mountain or the wonders under the waters of the sea (I scuba dive) I FEEL God there, but as for belief in a certain way of worship? That eludes me. That does not seem to be God's real intent for humanity.

There are thousands of religions, all claiming to be the "One true faith" or whatever, yet not ONE of these truly stands out. God has not made himself known to me, other than through the physical world around me in which I feel his presence. HE has not revealed to me "This is the way, walk in it." I feel none of that. I know now that JW are not the "true way", of that I'm 100% certain. But what way does he want me to follow? The only and best guess I have is that he wants me to follow my own conscience. Every human has one. Granted everyone's is different, but we all DO have one. To me this must be the only real "guide to truth" we have. So I try very hard to follow mine. I live by the rule: Do no harm. What that means to me is to not harm other people. Not to lie, not to hold grudges, not to be mean, to treat others with kindness and respect, etc.....

If at the end I come face to face with God I know that I will be able to hold my head up high in good conscience and say "I did what I thought was best. I gave it my all. I called to you and I didn't get any clear answers but I had a conscience so I followed that as that was the only moral guide I had. If that's not good enough then do with me what you will, but if you are omniscient then you know that I am telling the truth and you have nothing against me because you did not guide me."

So until God decides to "show me the way" I will continue on in my present way of living and believing for, what else do I have????????????????

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Toasting is Pagan - How many contradictions can fit in 2 pages, I found 5?

by jwfacts in

the watchtower 2007 feb 15 pp.30-31 explains why jehovah's witnesses are not to toast.

what is astounding is that for each point they then go on an explain why the point is irrelevant, yet still conclude toasting is wrong.

what did people think when reading this?

Freeandclear

It's a cult. Modern day Pharisees.....

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Finding time

by Jordandemm in

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is it possible to full time pioneer while working a full time job without making up the hours?

i know of a brother who recently got married too a pioneer the guy was really desperate to get married because his wife despite her many 'spiritual credentials' has very few christ-like qualities unfortunately, anyway that's besides the point.

he is a pioneer now and i'm sure he will be a ms soon the organisation likes that type of stuff the 'pioneer couple' so it shouldn't come as a surprise.

Freeandclear

I forgot the whole point of my post.....

I never ever felt right about counting and reporting time. I saw what others did and how the fudged their time, doing all the same types of things that have already been mentioned and eventually years later I too was guilty of these things. I can remember leaving my house and with tract in hand I'd find someone walking on the street and pull my car over and simply say "Hey, want something interesting to read?" and that would be the start of my time, BEFORE the FS meeting. I'd count all the way through lunch too, maybe minusing 15 minutes or so but most times I didn't. Stuff like that. It really ate at me, but I did it to keep up appearances, that's not what we were taught God wants in the form of sacrifice. Nothing but a one legged dead dog...... shame. And we all did it. What a joke.

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Finding time

by Jordandemm in

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friends

is it possible to full time pioneer while working a full time job without making up the hours?

i know of a brother who recently got married too a pioneer the guy was really desperate to get married because his wife despite her many 'spiritual credentials' has very few christ-like qualities unfortunately, anyway that's besides the point.

he is a pioneer now and i'm sure he will be a ms soon the organisation likes that type of stuff the 'pioneer couple' so it shouldn't come as a surprise.

Freeandclear

Man, it's nuts to read all of these experiences of service and how closely they all resemble what I went through. It's was no different for me either.

I got baptized at 18 and the elder who studied with me was a very close friend and father figure. I did not like service, I mean come on, who really does? I did not want to pioneer, hell I didn't even want to be a JW but I saw the light at a convention and that was it for me. I'm an all in or all out kind of person and so I bit it and got baptized. I really did believe it was the truth 100%

My friend the elder was the PO of our hall and I really looked up to him. He seemed like Jesus himself in many ways. Never ever did anyone wrong and I still believe that about him. He's very sincere and loving. So I followed his lead and when he encouraged me to pioneer after hs I did. I didn't want to but it seemed like what Jehovah wanted from me. I gave up a 4 year MIT scholarship too.

I used to hate pretty much every minute of FS. I all too well remember "Let's hit this RV right here by the hall so we can get our time started...." then we'd drive straight to McDonalds and eat crap. Then drive a million miles away to the edge of the territory for another RV that was always known to be not at home because they worked during the day! Come on. "Maybe they'll be there" was always the justification. I had a good buddy who was my pioneer partner. I should mention, I auxiliary pioneered for about a year prior to going full time (back then 1991 or so it was 60 for AP and 90 for regular). My good buddy, Lawrence hated service too. He never said anything but I could see it in his eyes every day and by his actions. He always drove and it was the slowest driving ever! Always from one edge of the territory to the other for each RV. We rarely did walking territory if he could help it. Rainy days and snowy shitty days (which we very often had here in our lovely little corner of NE Ohio) were ever more dreadful.

I was young, full of energy and life. I worked a part time job three days a week but I put in nearly 40 hours in those three days. I would get up on my off days and go in service ALL day to make my time. It was dreadful and exhausting and I always was depressed and felt like something was wrong with me. I mean, I was doing God's work! I should be full of joy shouldn't I? I should be overflowing with happiness at being so privileged but I wasn't, ever. Once in a while it was nice to have an upbuilding conversation with someone, or to genuinely help someone with a positive thought from the Bible. I tried very much to focus on these types of conversations with people.

God forbid, sorry ladies, if there were sisters in the car group. Nothing but a very backhanded gossip session all day long.

We had so many crazies in our congregation too. Just severely mentally unbalanced. But was it them or the bOrg that made them that way? Personally I think it was lack of sex! I know it nearly made me mad and eventually put me right out of the Truth.

Sorry for the incredibly long and boring post! Fun to reminisce.