Posts by magotan

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my worst fears were realized

by magotan in

im on my phone, so im really limited.

i came out to my family about my doubts and my sexuality.

shit hit the fan.

magotan

Thanks for the support. In a motel right now, roommate situation is fallig apart. Im a bit dire right now. I keep thinking of going back, but that does not seem possible.

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my worst fears were realized

by magotan in

im on my phone, so im really limited.

i came out to my family about my doubts and my sexuality.

shit hit the fan.

"Dear Facebook Friends.

I realize that most of my witness and those religious friends friends will defriend me and I am hereby starting an inquiry into my character, but

I am gay. I have been gay for quite some time, and I am tired of hiding it.

If we remain friends, maybe our relationship will deepen. If we don't, I understand totally."

~60 likes.

Some of the FB messages from JW's.

"Hey we still love you bro. Appreciate others concern for you but dont listen the worldly views in those comments man. I know you know that. But just remember to pray to Jehovah to help you to sort things out. - And quite honestly I don't think you're gay man. You might think you are because you may be attracted to guys but one of the Awakes helped us to appreciate that that's all linked to hormonal changes within our bodies that makes us feel that way. This happens in our age range and some witnesses think they're gay because of it but that's not always the case. But just pray to Jehovah about it which I already know you will."

"Hey Magotan. I saw your facebook status this morning and was curious if you were serious or if you were hacked? let me know friend."

"Hey Magotan, how're you doing brother? I noticed your post on Facebook and desired to ask how you were handling your feelings and the way others may have reacted to your declaration? I hope everything is well with you and your family. As a friend, I wanted to share an encouraging article with you from the JW site: http://www.jw.org/en/bible-teachings/family/teenagers/ask/pressure-to-be-gay/. I want you to know that I'm praying for you as I do for all my friends, and that I'm here if you ever need somebody to talk to."

"Hey hun let me.know if you need me and yes i still love you veryvery much"

"Are you gonna talk to the brothers about this? Are you even going to stay a witness?"

"Magotan, I just seen your status, But you are not gay, there is no such thing, you know that, please pray tho Jah about your weakness, it is not worth dying and being dead forever, there are plenty of people in Jehovah's organization that has these tendencies and are doing well in fighting them and keeping it at bay, they know in the New World Jehovah will fix this, They are doing well, they didnt give in,, PLEEEEAAASSEEE Pray and get help from the elders, Jehovah want you to come to him about your problem and He is willing to forgive if you did something and be merciful, But dont Give in,,dont give in,, I love you so much,, Please Pray, And seek help, Live forever!!!!"

" would never judge someone for a feeling they have. We're all imperfect. Jehovah knows we're imperfect. That's why he's patient with us. It's our action that counts. What we do. I just want you to know I still care about you as a friend. Jehovah still cares about you as a person. I just hope you make the right decision in the end.... I'll keep you in my prayers"

One message was supportive, only one. From a chick that I had maybe one conversation with.

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my worst fears were realized

by magotan in

im on my phone, so im really limited.

i came out to my family about my doubts and my sexuality.

shit hit the fan.

magotan

I told my family, and I came out on Facebook literally at about the same time. I also expressed the fact that I couldn't go to the meetings or be a JW in good consience. When I told them things such as the UN scandal, Candace Conti, 1914, they told me they were apostate lies and that they would tolerate no rivalry to Jehovah. I was accused of being twisted and corrupt. I was told I'm not really gay because I'm not having sex. I needed to fight harder. My suicide thoughts were irrelevant. I was told to read the articles about homosexuality (particularlly the newest one). I guess they were a bit upset when I told them I found those articles insulting.

In 24 hours

- Everyone I knew as a JW has said their goodbyes.

- My family has disowned me.

- I was put out from my house. (However, I did find a roommate, so maybe it's not so bad)

- I found out that one of my friends has stronger doubts than I did, we started talking a lot more.

- Since I came out on FB, I have been labeled bad association. Even by some miracle I decide to stay, my reputation is ruined.

- My dad is stepping down as an elder, and it's my fault. "He's not talking care of home".

I've been made to feel like their disaster is my fault. And I feel horrible. Yet powerful.

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my worst fears were realized

by magotan in

im on my phone, so im really limited.

i came out to my family about my doubts and my sexuality.

shit hit the fan.

magotan

im on my phone, so im really limited. i came out to my family about my doubts and my sexuality. Shit hit the fan. im in an econolodge for the night. today, about 10 friends said their goodbyes. two of my four brothers told me never to contact them again.

I feel powerful yet immensely sad.

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Avoiding Homelessness

by magotan in

i'm falling apart here.

the false teachings of the jw enrage me; we started covering the information for the jeremiah book, and i was outraged at how they twist up the scriptures to meet what they want to say.

my dad wants to consider the "god's love" book during family worship evening.

magotan

I work full time, and I have a few responsibilites to pay off. I'm attempting to get to another school (i've applied to a few downstate) but it's so complicated. I have roughly 1/2 a degree in a major I don't really like, I'm attempting to transfer to a school that offers my dream goal. I felt like a dick; I applied for FAFSA, and I actually checked the box about being at-risk for homelessness (which means you have no parental info). They're starting to ask questions, and I'm a terrible liar. I'm hoping I can intercept the mail and remove any letters from the colleges I've applied to. Since I'm in school, i've been 'marked' and no one will talk to me. I don't get any calls, really. I'm viewed as a disappointment.

I'm going to attempt to declare financial independence for school, but I don't know if anything is going to work out right now.

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Avoiding Homelessness

by magotan in

i'm falling apart here.

the false teachings of the jw enrage me; we started covering the information for the jeremiah book, and i was outraged at how they twist up the scriptures to meet what they want to say.

my dad wants to consider the "god's love" book during family worship evening.

magotan

I'm falling apart here. The false teachings of the JW enrage me; we started covering the information for the Jeremiah book, and I was outraged at how they twist up the scriptures to meet what they want to say. My dad wants to consider the "god's love" book during family worship evening. The tone of our Family worship was of "OMG how bad the world is". I am skipping meetings, but I am running out of excuses. It bothers my consience to go to the meetings; knowing how many lies are taught and how many people are misled.

I want out, and I'm losing my facade. I'm either going to end up disfellowshipped, or homeless. I don't know what to do next.

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Blondie's Comments You Will Not Hear at the 02-10-2013 WT Study (TRUSTED STEWARDS)

by blondie in

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your relationship with god will then be like that of those christians to whom paul wrote: you do not belong to yourselves, for you were bought with a price.

for example, the comments jesus made about one.

master, jesus christ.1 cor.