lyineyes: not tryin to pick up a date...and if I EVER put an ad in one of them dating services I hope that someone wud just put me out of my misery...didnt realize that people were lookin fer DATES when postin on this particular thread...I will stop postin on this one...
Posts by zanex
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7If you could be/could have been...
by Kingpawn in.
the person can be living or dead, the same sex gender as you or the opposite, real or a character from a movie, play, book, etc.
i think i'd go with sherlock holmes (attention to detail and analytical ability) or captain nemo (freedom to explore).. incidentally sherlock holmes is based on a real person.
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If you could be/could have been...
by Kingpawn in.
the person can be living or dead, the same sex gender as you or the opposite, real or a character from a movie, play, book, etc.
i think i'd go with sherlock holmes (attention to detail and analytical ability) or captain nemo (freedom to explore).. incidentally sherlock holmes is based on a real person.
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jack the ripper, albert einstein, shakespeare, salvador dali, aeon flux...for whoever recognizes that one...
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Age Sex Location Occupation Anyone?
by Perfection Seeker in.
33 female iowa massage therapist happily married no children (yet).
anyone else?
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yep its FU*%$#@ HOT! Of all friggin dayz to wear black...sigh...
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Age Sex Location Occupation Anyone?
by Perfection Seeker in.
33 female iowa massage therapist happily married no children (yet).
anyone else?
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zanex
age? 27 technically I suppose..and male...
Location? aarrgghhh dead time fresno cali...
occipation? Sign Language Interpreter for a non profit agency and for me every now and then when I need the cash...
currently separated until I can get the divorce papers finalized...and one beautiful baby girl that I love dearly. She is my little daddys girl...she is 16 almost 17 months old...
Edited by - zanex on 10 July 2002 16:19:3
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certifiable...it was bound to happen
by zanex inwell its official now i guess...i went to see the doc the other day cuz of all the mental crap that has been wreaking havoc on my mind lately and wreaking havoc on my sleeping and eating patterns.
namely i havent been sleeping or eating much if any.
i was given, much to my humor, xanax...sigh.
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spaz: laughing it off and making a joke is probably one of the only things that keeps me somewhat sane. However much sanity i may have left. :) maybe some of yer poetry to cheer me up?
ladylee: yah this board has been a source of much help and I am very much thankful that I got here. As for taking meds...it has just been so long since I have had to take ANY meds that it was a bit hard for me to swallow..no pun intended. Local support...I am still relatively new in this town. Most of the people I know I met thru my exwife so it makes it a little tricky. Lisa(ldh) has been a great help in terms of someone local to vent to. Thanx
saintsatan: "nothing wrong with falling apart" :) thanx...I think I needed to hear that...I spend so much time desperately trying to hold myself together that I forget it is ok to crumble every now and then. The doc didnt seem to have many ideas for support groups that wud match me. I have a hard time with trust issues, yet another flaw from that jw conditioning. Workin on it tho. Til I find somethin this board has been here for me to just vent.
xena: THANX girl...much love felt from the jw board and the "black sheep" that congregate here. :) The pix came out perfect too thanks fer postin em. :)
lyineyes: " Oh well , that which does not kill us, only makes us stronger" boy does THIS ever ring true! I hope that I get to the point one day where none of that jw shite even phazes me at all and I can just shrug my shoulders and say "eh fuck it" I think its funny that I am not there already I have been out for damn near 9 years or so but never really dealt with any of the conditioning that I got while IN the borg. One day...til then I guess the meds will have to do...and I will take yer luck! Even if them damn jdubs hate the crap outta me!
teejay: yah I am tryin to distance myself completely from my friggin jw parents. They just seem to keep messin with my mind. Thanx fer the support!
outlaw: yep definitely life altering....hopefully I make it thru all this life altering dung...I think I will...lol. (somehow)
a dub is another name fer a jw say it with me one time, "jay dubbleyah" JW'S fer the viewing audience back home.
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certifiable...it was bound to happen
by zanex inwell its official now i guess...i went to see the doc the other day cuz of all the mental crap that has been wreaking havoc on my mind lately and wreaking havoc on my sleeping and eating patterns.
namely i havent been sleeping or eating much if any.
i was given, much to my humor, xanax...sigh.
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well its official now I guess...I went to see the doc the other day cuz of all the mental crap that has been wreaking havoc on my mind lately and wreaking havoc on my sleeping and eating patterns. Namely I havent BEEN sleeping OR eating much if any. I was given, much to my humor, xanax...sigh. It was funny when it was only a screen name but not nearly as funny now that it is a bottle in my cabinet at home...between the divorce, my friggin elder dad and holier-than-thou mom, my job, and several other things goin on in my life I fell apart. I was given a couple other rx's and they have definitely helped in makin me artificially happy...whatever...the nice way that my parents have been smothering my ex with positive attention has been doing nothing but slowly crushing me. Hey I guess it is ok tho. I'll will make it thru somehow...havent posted here much....feel like I am losing what little I have left of my mind...why me? why did MY parents have to become jws? ahhh fuck it...ltrs....
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Name the song from a snippet of lyric
by Simon inand no cheating by searching on the internet!.
a man my age is very young so i'm told.
why do i feel so old.
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I can hear the first one in my head but cant seem to get it...
and the second one is a gimme...pink floyd...off of "the wall"
heres one fer ya..." I can see through you see your true colors..cuz inside yer ugly..ugly like me..I can see through you..see to the real you.."
Edited by - zanex on 28 June 2002 18:44:39
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zanex gettin creative?
by zanex ini saw the fires light.
i heard the cries of silence.
freedom was coming.
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zanex
thanx spice...;)
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zanex gettin creative?
by zanex ini saw the fires light.
i heard the cries of silence.
freedom was coming.
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I saw the fires light
I heard the cries of silence
freedom was coming
no more hidden anger hidden violence
locked away in a box
thrown in the corner
left to the dogz of the world
lost to all forever was I
the sun arose that morning
some of the cold had passed
some of the anger had fallen
how long wud it last...?
the ice from my soul warmed just a bit
I could feel the defrost coming down my face
tears...a new feeling...freedom...
now I sit locked in my manacles...
with the keys to the locks in my hands..
yet still I sit bound...
these chains somewhat comforting...
F*&@ THAT
no more locked chains
no more conditional love
no more regime
no more...
FREEDOM!
My life in a nutshell...probably cud be better...
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Lets get friendly! (pics are welcome)
by SpiceItUp inwhen i meet somebody for the first time i always have a few standard questions i ask them...so how about it.
i would like to know about all you wonderful people that i chat and post with on a daily basis.
this is me (i edited to put the link in by stephanus...thanks a bunch) .
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yah the last scene in the movie "craft" when that crazy gothic chick was locked down in the mental ward did somethin fer me..heh heh. oh yah one more thing..DAMN dissedsis! The baby wipes are a nice touch...;)