millie210: I am in the beginning phases of exactly what you describe. People are starting to fall off in their enthusiasm in direct relation to how many meetings I missed.
I'm sorry you're going through this. It's all so unnecessary.
But know this, that by working through this you'll become a stronger, better person.
Don't get me wrong, it's painful to be cutoff by people you love and thought were true, loyal friends. But the reality is, they are more loyal to a demonstrably false and hypocritical religion than to people of character, strength of real conviction and character.
They lack the humility to see that there is another way to see the world than the distorted vision they've come to accept through WT indoctrination. They lack the perspective to consider situations from any other point of view.
I'm glad you're working on not taking it personally, as hard as that is. But the truth is, people that cutoff are all wrapped up in themselves. It's all about them. It's not really about you.
When we get stronger and make choices for our life that are our own, it threatens them. Their only possible reaction is anger and ultimatums. It's really a childish tantrum.
Hang in there. It gets better.
