Cappytan: do you think your family will shun you again if you fade after reinstatement?
If they are shunning you now, they will almost certainly shun you then.
It's a big decision to make and no one should judge you either way. But if you do try and get reinstated, you will have to endure many months, maybe a year or more, of humiliation and it may not change a thing.
I did it and it was unsuccessful. I was reinstated 2 1/2 years ago and the family I wanted back still shun me. The only thing I took away was their lame excuse.
Let's review: It's a cult!