I'm not hoping to find anything. Someone recommended
meditation to me, and said that Buddhists were non-theists. I looked
into it and liked everything I saw about Buddhism, except for the
supernatural rebirth stuff.
I can appreciate that.
You may like reading some Eckhart
Tolle. Along these lines there is kind of a 'mindfulness meditation',
which can be done all during the day.
You basically just practice on being
more aware of what is going on within the present moment. No beliefs,
no scripts, are involved.
You come to be more aware of physical
feelings, like the multifaceted experience of breathing, etc. Also
can come a clearer seeing of how thoughts, beliefs, and emotions are
just passing cloud-like things, and in no way define your
authenticity. In this way one can come to a deeper awareness of ones
true and deeper being, by clearly seeing what we are not.
It's not a forced thing, but rather a
way of kindness and patience.
Many people have found it to be
life-changing.
Good luck.