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  Did You Ever Aspire To Be Anything Special In The Organization?

  by minimus in

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  i never wanted to go to bethel but when i was a teenager, i wondered what i would need to do to become a circuit overseer.

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  Kep,

  Same with me. I wanted so bad to be a CO.

  And I really feel like I could have been an effective one, because I never bought into have the stuff. I guess you could say that I was very liberal.
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  When did the Brothers/Sisters, make you feel UNLOVED,WORTHLESS?

  by Fruitcake in

  1. jw
  2. friends

  i felt worthless, when i was a new auxiliary pioneer.

  i was having some personal problems, but i was so eager to try my best, and doing quite good in the hall.

  i was in a new hall, with a new bunch, and always out in service.

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  By the way, LDH, you are hot.

  I want to see if we can have a Miss JW Discussion Forum Pageant.
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  When did the Brothers/Sisters, make you feel UNLOVED,WORTHLESS?

  by Fruitcake in

  1. jw
  2. friends

  i felt worthless, when i was a new auxiliary pioneer.

  i was having some personal problems, but i was so eager to try my best, and doing quite good in the hall.

  i was in a new hall, with a new bunch, and always out in service.

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  This one really pissed me off.

  But it also made me feel worthless.

  I was just recently privately reproved, but this one sister knew the story.

  Anyway, we're out in service and we stop on a break.

  To be nice, I volunteered to buy everyone in the car group breakfast.

  Everyone accepted except for Miss Hollier than Thou Pioneer who wouldn't accept anything from me.

  The way I took it was that, when we were in service, she could talk to me, but now we were on a break, I was now bad association to be avoided.
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  What does it take to become an elder?

  by sandy in

  1. watchtower
  2. bible

  a question for some of you x-elders or current elders what is the process to become an elder?.

  are there questions like when you get baptized?

  has anybody here ever turned down an offer to be an elder?

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  This was a tremendously bitter point for me.

  I Pioneered for 9 years straight. My wife did too.

  The guy I studied with became an elder before me.

  It's a game. Lets see who can suck up the most.
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  Did YOU Ever Think That YOU Would Be Talking Against The "Truth"?

  by minimus in

  1. jw
  2. friends

  being raised as a witness, i don't think that i ever thought i would speak against the organization of jehovah's witnesses.

  what about you??

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  I told an elder the other day that, when I believed JW to be the truth, I preached as a pioneer.

  But if I find out another "truth," wouldn't I be bloodguilty if I DIDN'T also preach that on top of the roofs???
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  When is depression a good thing?

  by Maverick in

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  the last five years i was a dud i suffered chronic depression.

  not debilitating depression, but a low- grade constant dissatisfaction with whatever!

  the one saving grace for me was my job.

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  Maverick's post above hit it right on the head.

  If you are truly honest hearted about the truth, I don't see how you could possibly NOT get depression somewhere along the way.

  The whole system is built upon "activity by guilt feelings."
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  Cheap airfairs??? you've got to be kidding

  by VeniceIT in

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  2. entertainment

  a friend sent me this link and i'm befuddled .

  http://www.ryanair.com/index.html.

  what on earth???

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  Venice,

  I was got on to this thread because I though you said, "Cheap Affairs."
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  What are the rules the WTS pharisees have burdended JWs with?

  by berylblue in

  1. jw
  2. friends

  in another thread, mini questioned why the wts does not see that the gb and elders are like the pharisees.

  what do you all think are the "rules" jws have been given that smack of pharisaical (is that a word?

  ) burdening and/or hypocricy?.

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  I remember the elders in my circuit having a fit because brothers were shaving their heads.

  They were counciled for copying Michael Jordan.

  Then a few years after that, some of the white brothers in my cong began shaving their heads because they were going bald.

  The got a reaming too.
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  My life story... by Confuzcious.

  by confuzcious in

  1. jw
  2. experiences

  hello friends,.

  since i'm not going to the memorial for the first time since i've became a witness, i wanted to post my "j dub" life story as a form of therapy.. i guess i'm posting this here, also, as sort of a refreshment for others who taken this road.

  after much study, i've finally disassociated myself - in my heart at least.

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  Hello Friends,

  Since I'm not going to the memorial for the first time since I've became a Witness, I wanted to post my "J Dub" life story as a form of therapy.

  I guess I'm posting this here, also, as sort of a refreshment for others who taken this road. After much study, I've finally disassociated myself - in my heart at least.

  To begin with, I was was not brought up in the organization but became one about 15 years ago through a friend.

  After the initial "love bombling," the one thing that made me think was a CO we had. He was real pompus and had negative things to say when I showed up for field service in a new convertible - two doors of course.

  It was tremendously upsetting because, here I was, a person from "the world" that left everything behind and was going out in field service about 12 hours a month, and all the guy could do was pick on me because of the car I drove.

  Eventually I got over that and got married and pioneered with my wife.

  One thing that I am glad of, is that during that time, I was really balanced in that I pioneered, but still worked hard to advance myself personally.

  In time, I accumulated things such as $70,000 cars, limousines, homes, etc.

  Without going into too much detail, I'm in the arts.

  All this, outside of one of the homes and the limousine, was while I was pioneering.

  After a while, it GREATLY upset me that I was a pioneer for almost 10 years and never was appointed as an elder.

  My life goal at the time was to be a CO.

  It especially disturbed me that my Bible Study, whom I studied with WHILE a Pioneer, became an elder before me.

  The bottom line, is that I was NOT a typical J Dub. I was a pioneer, but it bothered certain ones that I was one that was "progressing" in the "Truth" TM and also making money in "the world."

  During this time of material increase, I because very prominent in my area. I was known as a JW and many of the friends, some of whom I still love, would use my name and say, "Well, so and so, is also a Witness."

  In time, the absolute frustration of not "progressing' to be an elder, got me down.

  I took on a mistress (which I know is wrong), and got reproved. Twice.

  My wife took me back on both occasions.

  In time, my wife left me and I also began to go on the Internet to research JW.

  There's much of the story in between here, but between Randy Watters and the two books Ray Franz wrote, I finally realized that, yes, perhaps, this is not the way.

  There is too much things to talk about what made me leave, but the bottom line is, REASON brought me into the "TRUTH" and REASON brought me out.

  Today, I profess to be a Christian with Jesus Christ as my Lord AND my MEDIATOR. HELLO!!!!! Remember HIM????

  Along the way, I've became depressed, suicidal and felt lower than dirt.

  I'm divorced now, and have a wonderful girlfriend that I will benefit from ALL the things I've done wrong with in my first marriage.

  From time to time, I may post, but know that this board has really helped me in many ways. And I may or may not continue to post.

  But know with all things, I'm ready to move on with my life. And I'm VERY happy and content. Not only with life, but my new relationship with my Master.

  Thank you Brunnie, Blondie and a host of others here that have been tremendously helpful.

  And Godspeed.

  With Love,

  Confuzcious.
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  Depressed beyond Words...

  by Shytears in

  1. watchtower
  2. medical

  did u ever feel so depressed u felt the only thing that could get rid of the pain was to commit suicide???

  ?...well i tried that tonite,i know its not a good thing ,but i felt it was the only way out..well im still here so i didnt do it,thank god,my wrists have lil cuts everywhere tho,i just hope no one sees them..if u guys remember me yall know it has been an ongoing battle with my parents cause i dont wanna be a witness.. now i literally cannot do nothing!

  they dont trust me at all!

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  Shy,

  I tried the same thing but I was going to hang myself.

  All I can say now is that I'm glad it didn't happen.