Yes, That is correct, I was only studying...haven't had a study in nearly 6 months, I would say. But I also do not want to be solidly straight with the Elders...not good to give them any reasons to counsel my husband about keeping his wife in "subjection"....so I will play it safe as possible. I will post here Friday morning and let you all know if I am strong enough to uphold myself against the elders and keep them at bay off my husband. I wish I could call them and cancel, I already offered that idea to hubby. He did not approve of that idea. He just wants to also pacify them enough to leave us alone for another 6 months. My husband has seen the treatment and knows exactly how I feel and does not feel that I am wrong. We have a wonderful marriage, we look out for each others interests. But he is not willing to "leave" the organization, I am sure due to his large JW family.
I brought up the fact of the UN conroversy last night with him and he was angry....he said NO WAY, and did not want to hear further info. So, he understands how I feel regarding the lack of association we receive, and does not care to go to meetings himself, but believes that the organization is "it"....so I gotta tread water at home medium. He is not willing to bend far enough to leave.
He says he has no motivation to go to meetings and does not know why. I know...he has no association, no encouragement, no happiness. he has not been out in service in over a year. In fact for the 2 years I have known him...he has been in service 2 times. So, I figure...give him time...he will hopefully stay away long enough to not want to ever go back.
He was previously married to a sister who got pregnant by a ministerial brother while being married to my husband. That REALLY threw him for a loop. I am surprised he even remarried.
Thanks for everything...you all have been quite supportive and helpful...very much appreciated and what I have been longing for in quite sometime.
Edited by - jacqueline on 22 January 2003 20:49:0