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The two things they did to me.

by joelbear in

i am an injured man because they did things to my mind and to my soul.

i can't make it through the day without some kind of medication to keep me going.

its getting worse with age not better.. first they warped my life plan.

equalizer

So sorry to hear of your story. Many of us have suffered these feelings, I was on medication for years suffering from depression brought on by the guilt I was made to feel. I know no-one is perfect, but I was constantly striving for some perfection in everything that I did. People took advantage of me alot with this. When I to look back I see how I was drawn in to all of this, and it still hurts to see how used I was.

Now years later down the line, sack the medication, sought help, was on ward after ward. Finaly my thoughts are in order, alot stronger, take no nonsense from no-one, and most of all my personality is on track. My best quaility, my humour was stifeled in case I said a word wrong, or something that someone may take as an offence. I am happy now. I hope and I am sure that you to will regain this happinessCherish what you have now, try and forget what you may have had in the past. If you do not, it will screw you up more, and they are still wining. In time people will take you once again as they see you, and you will get back more than you lost. Take care of yourself. You are not on your own. Lisa

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bad ass--ociations

by equalizer in

equalizer

Hi just thought I would add a bit myself on associations as I have read about a few.To the point: A family had 5 kids all taught at home. Family well standing in the hall.New family joined congregation, they had 2 kids. The new family was very close to the good standing familyMother then decided to to teach her 2 kids at home. She had no idea how to teach (thick) as I and many put it. But she was insistant on doing so.Pics, drawings etc. splattered all over the walls, to show others how well she was teaching them. (especially later on, when the book study was at her home).The lids had to be just perfect, no noise allowed, sit to attention, had to go to toilet before studynot during, the kind of thing most of us have known. My children were not good enough to play with hers, (even though our family had been in much longer). My kids could not even speak about their school day infront of her children, as worldy ways might creep to her kids. Bearing in mind I was the one who took the bible study in a small room at the school, as they did not go in assembly. It was totaly unbearable. I thought this cannot be right. I had a word with the elders about it. (nothing). Now: The full family are out, she lives with her husband in the same house awaiting divorce. She sees another guy. Swears like a trooper. Parties twice a week. As the biggest christmas tree mentionable. The kids are much older now, and have visible nervous problems. They hate the witnesses. Have to have extra tuition to compensate for her nit picking.And best of all: I was disfellowshipped, because of that she hit the bottle, and left herself. It is good to look back. (what an idiot)