Why you annoy me:
I was more or less a born-in to the Borg. Like everyone else on this site, I was fooled and controlled for a long time by undereducated men with little more than a high school education, just like you Charlie.
These were all white men with essentially the same N. European DNA, just like you Charlie.
Their claim to the power they held was because, like you Charlie, they had special knowledge not available to the rest of us.
Like you, Charlie, they had the correct interpretation of bible prophecy when all who had come before them had failed. Every one of their prophecies failed. Just like yours will, Charlie.
Like you, Charlie, they claim a close, personal relationship with make believe gods – a relationship not available to the rest of you as you have pointed out.
Like you, Charlie, they sought to elevate themselves above everyone else by pontificating their special knowledge and judgments. They and they alone have the keys to salvation.
And like you, Charlie, they are deserving of our ridicule and exposing them for what they are – Delusional Narcissists and Charlatans of the highest order.
Believe. Please. But keep your narcissistic, special knowledge and very close personal relationship to fairy tale make believe deities to yourself. Or prepare to experience exactly what you have experienced with this OP by the rational, analytical, evidence based and those who have had their lives altered and harmed by the very men you emulate and seek to replace.
Hiding behind your Uriah Heep humility, when you have shown yourself to be arrogant and self important, is another reason you annoy me.