BW,
If you let them coerce you into baptism, and you can't manage a quiet fade over the next few decades without ending up in the elders' crosshairs, and based on what we hear that will be unlikely, you will resent them with anger as they shun you possibly until they pass away or you get reinstated. Rinse and repeat.
If you don't get baptised you can keep a relationship with them over the decades. They may use guilt for a while to try to control you, but it is almost a certainty that sooner or later that will fade, especially as you get older stronger and wiser.
That's your 2 futures.
Please dont get baptised.