cleanlines, your comments resonate with me. I was out for about 25 years. All of my immediate family is still in the "Organization" so I am alone. Through all of those years I never did any research on what they were currently teaching or went to any ex-JW sites. It wasn't until this year until I did so. In those 25 years I woke up with a dark cloud over my head about my family and what I had lost.
One of the things my family was able to do for 25 years was continuing to making me feel bad and inferior. And, I believed that I deserved the shunning, etc. However, in the past year sites like this have given me the tools to understand that the "Organization" is just a business and nothing more. And, that my family and the "Organization" has no moral superiority over me. At the very least, I feel much better because, unlike them, I do not harbor criminals. That's very liberating.