Cuzzy
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A year on
by Cuzzy inhey there all!
sorry it has been so long since i last posted on the site...im glad to be back again .....and hope to now post regulary.. as we all stop to remember the life changing events of september 11th 2001....i too reflect on the week that changed my life forever.
it is now coming up to a year since i was kicked out (9th september) by my 'mother', who is a jehovah's witness....and a year since i left the religion.......it was no easy decision to make....and one that i didnt take lightly....but it was bascially made for me when i realised that no one in the congregation believed me......and i was shunned.... for months i had my doubts that i had made the worst decision of my life...... and just recently asked to have a meeting with an elder........but i 'woke up' to myself..and realised nothing had changed........that the matter had been swept under the carpet....and no one was....nor is prepared to do anything about it..... its taken a year but im moving on with my life....im trying to let go off the anger, resentment and despair that i feel towards the past.......life's too short to live in the past.........it's not easy by any standards trying to let go of the guilt, and trying to find yourself...... i'm finding out what the real me is like.......im not told anymore who i should be, what im doing wrong...and what i should be thinking....im now living life as i feel i should live it....sure people still judge me....but at the end of the day...i have to live with my decisions and their consequences............. it's certainly a lot harder not being a jehovah's witness...well at least in the early stages...but as time passes i appreciate life more everyday...........im glad i was able to take that step out of my comfort zone (religion) when i did...... .
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