I was appointed as an elder in 1972 at the age of 25 and served until 1980 when I decided I had too many questions and my life was going nowhere. I laid low for a decade and a half until 1995 when my eyes were really opened with the release of 'this generation' 2.0. Probably from that time forward I became an unbeliever in my heart but not yet an full blown apostate.
So with a divided and troubled heart, I 'reached out' once again for that 'fine work' of being an elder. Subconsciously, I wanted to see if "Holy Spirit" would appoint a man that was an unbeliever. Yep, there was a 'need' in our congregation, so the "Holy Spirit" made an exception for me and I was appointed. It was a miracle I tell you!
I spent another decade being a 'voice of reason' to our BOE and a contrarian with the CO and other hard line elders. I asked difficult questions at elder meetings and brought up some of the very gross Bible accounts during casual discussions with other jw's and would ask, "Why do you think Jehober would have that account recorded?" Man is was fun for a decade then I "stepped down" to persue sanity.
just saying!
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