TMS
Thanks for sharing your experience with us.
Although my situation is different, I can relate somewhat, having been a born in and leaving after 30 years.
The longer you are in the harder it is to leave and recover. For many of us, being a JW was part of our identity for a very long time. We were encouraged to be witnesses 24 hours a day. We ate, swallowed and digested their "spiritual food at the proper time" for years. For many of us, our entire childhood and teen years were influence by the Watchtower.
Those of us born in the truth accept that this is/was our life - it is part of our past, our history, our culture. Our lives centered around meetings, ministry, assemblies, conventions, memorials etc.
I found that after I left, I had lost continuity with the past. I can't ever go back there; I wouldn't want to go back there. I have friends and family still in.
It feels like I have been reincarnated as myself, with a new life while still retaining memories of my old life.
The only thing we can do is move on as best we can, find new interests and hobbies and try to help those who want to be helped out the organization.