Yes I have to get out of the habit of justifing all my actions to everyone. Thus my opening statement was a justification for myself that really I am not in the truth anymore I am not a JW and I dont know how to feel about it still. I feel guilt and bitter at the realization.
lostandnotfound
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help what bookstudy book are we in?
by lostandnotfound ini am new here and i usually dont come to these type of places as they are rampant with apostates.
i still belive in most of the teachings but its the people in the org.
that have turned me away.. the reason that i am posting though is this, i have been inactive for a few months now but i have been holding out telling my parents, friends etc.
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help what bookstudy book are we in?
by lostandnotfound ini am new here and i usually dont come to these type of places as they are rampant with apostates.
i still belive in most of the teachings but its the people in the org.
that have turned me away.. the reason that i am posting though is this, i have been inactive for a few months now but i have been holding out telling my parents, friends etc.
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lostandnotfound
Thanks so much. Again I didnt mean to insult anyone with the apostate comment. I just dont need a speech about how all witnesses are horrible and the whole bible is a lie! Again I feel guilt at doing this and really with my whole life right now. It sickens me that I have to resort to this but what choice do I have. If I called up any brother or sister instead of being loving and kind they would think it was horrible that I was missing the meetings or that I didnt know what book we were in etc. Instead of helping they would make matters much worse. I dont know how I will tell my parents or how long I can keep up the illusion. I really dont know what to do, I know I want to be happy and I am not in the organization.
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help what bookstudy book are we in?
by lostandnotfound ini am new here and i usually dont come to these type of places as they are rampant with apostates.
i still belive in most of the teachings but its the people in the org.
that have turned me away.. the reason that i am posting though is this, i have been inactive for a few months now but i have been holding out telling my parents, friends etc.
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lostandnotfound
Hi,
I am new here and I usually dont come to these type of places as they are rampant with apostates. I still belive in most of the teachings but its the people in the org. that have turned me away.
The reason that I am posting though is this, I have been inactive for a few months now but I have been holding out telling my parents, friends etc. I live far away from them and this monday am going to visit them. The problem is that I have been keeping up to date till now with watchtowers in the mail cursed be that they stopped doing that! Now I am really out of touch. Which book study book are we in could you tell me page numbers chapters and subject matter? Also what watchtower article will we be studying April 6? Again watchtower specifics maybe what picture is on the front so I will be able to find it at my parents house as well. I am going to tell my parents of course that I forgot these publications when I go to visit them as I have no way of getting them, but I need to sound at least like I know what I am talking about. I hate doing this but I know it would crush them to learn that I am not as spiritually strong as they think I am. Please answer before monday I will check back every day. Thanks!