Congratulations on your awakening!
It will be tough, for sure, especially right after you realize what the "truth" was all about.
But, please hang on. It gets better with time.
There are many folks here who are ready to support.
In my case, I became "spiritually weak", "depressed", "busy with work".. until I faded. I am now inactive, but still maintain regular contact with my JW "friends". They need the field service hours, after all.
I no longer absorb the lies being fed. I tune out when I occasionally attend meetings. No one has bothered me too much. Someday I will completely disconnect. But this situation is working for me now.