you know, i always maintained that during this fading process, and while learning ttatt, i would not let myself get "bitter twisted and angry".... but, in all honesty, if i examine myself, i have become quite bitter toward the org, toward the false friends and the gb.. i have become angry as i see the extent of damage i feel being raised in "the truth" has done.... i feel hurt towards the lost opportunities in life etc.... how do i not allow myself to get too swallowed up by such bitterness?.
i have always been a very happy, positive, selfless person.
i can put people at ease, i am someone people feel comfortable chatting to.
I volunteer and taken up a new hobby of playing netball. None of it works....I still feel isolated and alone and miss my son terribly everyday. But I carry on for his sake and my daughter.
I am not bitter just very sad and isolated even though I have new pursuits in my life.
It's okay to feel like this stuck, not everyone has a successful exit.
Kate xx
i saw this coming since my mother-in-law's funeral .... the congregation's "love-bombing" over my wife had its impact.
i watched her drawing closer and closer to her friends in the congregation.
then she decided she would attend the memorial.
Eden, this is really saddening. I am so sorry. It's the thing I worry about the most with my kids that they go back. I hope you can still have a happy marriage and go out and do fun things together.
Kate xx
i read here regularly and although i haven't joined in, i really appreciate all the wonderful contributions from those who are willing to share their experiences.... .
i was a convert.
i won't go into the whole history ( perhaps another day) - my story could easily be recognised in the small town where i live, with my husband.. so, we stopped going to the meetings around a period of time when we were going through severe emotional difficulties - at that point, we needed unconditional family love - the hectic, forced jw dinner parties and social occasions gave no real comfort.
Hey Alive,
I understand what you're going through and it's difficult. It's rotten to lose all your friends and loved ones. I left in Nov 2013 and still mourn over my loss.
The isolation can be devastating and a nightmare to cope with.
I hope you and your husband can get through this and be happier soon.
Kate xx
for only the second time in internet history, a video recording of a secret jehovah's witness apostasy trial has been published online on the jwstruggle youtube channel.
follow isaac's story here:.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=se9rh6qux0o&feature=youtu.be.
I recorded my JC and put it up on the internet with jwstruggles help. Thanks Eric.....but it was not an apostasy trial...it was for "reviling".
It's still on jwstruggle now
Kate xx
just curious about others experience.
i've been living just a few miles from a kingdom hall for 9 years.
i've been called on 0 times.
Interesting feedback onnthe whole it looks like the D2D work is weakening and the JWs are less zealous.
I have been called on once in a year.....I invited them in and told them I had some questions aboutDfing. I was honest and told them I was Df'd. They were nice to my face and listened to the injustice I faced.
When they left I said I would welcome more visits. They took my number and never called me back.
I was searching for a nice sister who cared about justice. Found empty rituals. If anyone calls again I will still invite them in.
Kate xx
for only the second time in internet history, a video recording of a secret jehovah's witness apostasy trial has been published online on the jwstruggle youtube channel.
follow isaac's story here:.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=se9rh6qux0o&feature=youtu.be.
Thanks Eric and Issac. I thought that the elders were genuine and caring, sadly just blind.
They seemed much nicer than my JC....but the end outcome will be the same. The truth is that none of theses guys on your JC or mine are guided by holy spirit.
Kate xx
i have been visiting and commenting on jwn on my phone and have had a lot of success.
the only thing is a couple of times i have hit the like or dislike button and can undo it.. simon could you add a way to help us uncheck a mistake..... i am not too concerned about the like button as much a the dislike....i wouldn't want to discourage any posters .
kate xx .
Thanks Simon I will test this out on your post
Kate xx
i have been visiting and commenting on jwn on my phone and have had a lot of success.
the only thing is a couple of times i have hit the like or dislike button and can undo it.. simon could you add a way to help us uncheck a mistake..... i am not too concerned about the like button as much a the dislike....i wouldn't want to discourage any posters .
kate xx .
I have been visiting and commenting on JWN on my phone and have had a lot of success. The only thing is a couple of times I have hit the like or dislike button and can undo it.
Simon could you add a way to help us uncheck a mistake..... I am not too concerned about the like button as much a the dislike....I wouldn't Want to discourage any posters
Kate xx
i've been lurking for about 3 months now and thought i'd better finally sign up.
you have all been an immense help to me as i have come to realize that this isn't the truth so i want to say a great big thank you!
what a crazy, emotional ride it is to finally face the truth about the doubts that i have carried for many years.
Thanks for the update Stumpy.....sorry youre both feeling so emotional at the moment. I was very emotional too when the penny dropped. Both me and my adult daughter woke up the same time around two years ago.
Building our lives has been challenging and sometimes lonely.
I hope you manage to leave with your dignity in tact.
Kate xx
i've been lurking for about 3 months now and thought i'd better finally sign up.
you have all been an immense help to me as i have come to realize that this isn't the truth so i want to say a great big thank you!
what a crazy, emotional ride it is to finally face the truth about the doubts that i have carried for many years.
Welcome Stumpy....it's nice to see new ones waking up.
How did your answer of your own prayer work out? Did your wife react in a positive way?
Thanks for sharing
Kate xx
