I am not concerned with stories or examples of how they're horrible people. When it comes to personal experiences, I rarely believe them to be 100% true. - Qmf
Sounds to me like you're perfect for an elders role exactly the qualities WT like. When you start to develop concerns about those that have been mistreated you will be ready to explore you're doubts.
Nice to see you have started your journey.
Take care
Kate xx