Do your elders know you smoke MJ? Be Careful my brother in law was DF'd for hitting the pipe, oh but wait, you said you're not baptized. How convenient for you to avoid discipline. Is smoking Marijuana any different from smoking cigarettes? I think they would both be considered unclean habits, right? You don't smoke cigarettes do u? If you love "Jehovah" like you claim then you should quit all unclean habits because remember "jehovah's people are a clean people".
As for the Opening post, I love God because I cant accept a world with out one but I also can't say with out a doubt that his name is pronounced jehovah so I prefer to just say god or lord. As far as what I love about him, I love the world we were given and the potential for human love and compassion to shine at the most unexpected times and how it helps me to be a better person and to reach out and help other people, communities, or organizations/ministries that reach out and help.
Having a meaningfull ministry to support and be a part of that does more for people of all types than just throw doctrine at them has been very rewarding for me and that is something I never got with the jehovah's witnesses because they just didn't reach out to people unless they were trying to convert them.