So what I would do Is research the WT library, look up the scriptures and the reasoning and I would pray to God and then I would make my decision.
defd, I am impressed. If you keep doing this, and you consider whether the context of the Scriptures used actually supports the point drawn from a specific verse, I believe you will eventually come to have serious doubts about whether the FDS speaks for Jehovah. I bet you would agree that whatyou describe is not what most Witnesses do.
I think it is interesting that no one knows who the FDS is. We know who the Governing Body is. We know who the partakers are. But we don't know how many of the partakers are actually legitimate so we can't actually identify the FDS, i.e. Christ's brothers (according to the JW teachings), as a group for ourselves. The First Century Christians had no touble identifying each other.
Not raising the point for debate or to waylay the thread, it is just interesteing.
AuldSoul