Welcome Poppy.
Like all discussion boards, this one may contain it's share of those who will offend or even attack at times. Some might even lie, who knows.
But the majority of those I have encountered here are honest, intellectual persons who have truly escaped mind control. Like me!
Wifey and I left two years back after lifetimes in the organization. We did not leave on whimsy. We have checked out the sources, we have done the work. We were in shock, agony, dismay, ecstasy, joy, fear, disappointment, pain, euphoria. You name it, we have felt it.
The concept that the organization is God's only people is a hard one to leave. Security is replaced with fear of what the future holds. The answers are not black and white anymore.
Do the work. Check and prove for yourself what you see here or anywhere on the internet.
The best cure is to understand the illness. You had it - we had it. It was subjection to a cause without support. I wish you well on your journey. Lean on us - we all had to do that too. I still lean on these fine people often to hold up.
BTW - reading Ray's books will be an experience you will not forget. I honestly state that I feel as though I owe that man my life - May God bless your efforts.
Jeff