"Normal"...oh you mean like you?

wanderlustguy

Funny, the longer I go on, especially with the "new eyes", normal becomes fiction. There is no real normal, but there is acceptable and unacceptable. Hurting others, that would be unacceptable.

Next week I'll be going home, as in home where I grew up and learned the truth and learned what it means to judge, criticise, back stabb, lie, cheat, and cover over things when I'm too weak to face them for what they are. I already know I'll probably be "approached" while I'm there, because I'll be there for a while this time. There is one in particular who I think will probably "reach out". He'll say "we've been wondering how you have been". And my answer will be, well, I've been just fine, my brother has always had my number, there was no reason for you guys to wonder too much, you could have called.

This guy was someone I considered a friend at one point. I remember spending day after day helping him build his house, just me and him in the freezing cold. This same guy organized his own "quick build" projects for his home, having a bunch of brothers over to sheetrock or roof the place. Then one incident that always sticks with me. Saturday night we were in a clients office taking a break and watching Aliens, and the next AM he was giving a talk blasting people who secretly watch rated "R" movies. What a turd. I said something to him about it right afterwards, specifically "weren't you the guy with me last night watching an R rated movie?" He looked right at me and said, "I have no idea what you are talking about, I would never EVER do that". He used to talk about having sex with his wife all the damn time too, what a loser.

Anyway, he's an elder now, and it's pretty obvious to anyone who sees me that I'm not a dub anymore. My brother is still very much in and still has the blinders on big time. But no one ever checks on him, no one calls him, and he has health problems galore. I'm certain as soon as the word is out I'm back I'll get "the visit" and be DF'ed within a month. It's a town of about 1900 people...almost 10% are dubs, can you beleive that? Almost 200 dubs (active and inactive) in one little po-dunk town. So, it's gonna happen...I think I'm looking forward to it.

I'll be looked at as a freak, but if the people looking at me like that are what normal is...I'm pretty damn proud of who I am.

WLG

under74

Glad you're glad wlg. Your home town sounds like a horror movie setting.. Sorry for your brother though, he sounds like my mom way back when...she was still the upstanding Witness even though no one in the congregation gave a damn about her.

defd

Honestly stories like that break my heart. It is all to familiar. I see the same problems as you do. Brother, I am trying to be part of the solution rather than the problem.

D.

Legolas

Wander...I hope your visit goes the way you want it to!

Let us know!

wanderlustguy

Honestly stories like that break my heart. It is all to familiar. I see the same problems as you do. Brother, I am trying to be part of the solution rather than the problem.

I know, and that's why I don't view you as the same. I wish you could be part of the solution and maybe you can be part of "a solution" when you are ready. Sometimes I wish there was a way to reconcile it all and go back to beleiving that "Jehovah will fix his Organization". But eventually I found that statement completely explains the delimma.

Why would he have to fix something that is directed by him?

Why Georgia

Hi Wanderlustguy,

I hope your visit home goes well and that none of the people from your old hall will get you in their sites...I mean pay you a shepherding call.

I think I probably wouldn't be very nice about their sudden interest.

I'm sorry for your brothers health problems and the lack of love he is shown.

Please keep us posted.

Why Georgia

joelbear

utopias, including the imagined new world almost always require total conformity to some norm, lest the different reak havoc.

utopias will never exist. in reality people don't conform, they just give enough of an impression that they do that no one gives

them heat.

vitty

Exactly, why would Jehovah have literally thousands of ppl come into the org only for them to be terribly treated, by elders and COs. and then leave?

I hung on by my finger tips for years, determined to carry on despite, anything or anyone, thinking I was doing the right thing. It became impossible, now that would not have happened if it had been Gods own organization.

Jesus said his load was light and it is, it was and is the pharrisses (spelling?) that made it impossible for ppl, just like today.

Goodluck with your trip WLG

coffee_black

I kept waiting for it to be fixed too....and it only got worse. I stuck it out for over a decade from the time I started having doubts. When my daughter was 13 she kept asking me were the love was...'cause it wasn't there....and she would say "isn't love supposed to be the identifying mark?"... The longer I stuck it out, the more obvious it became....that it cannot be what it is claims to be. No possible way.

Coffee

blondie

"Jehovah will fix his organization."

Doesn't the WTS teach that he did that already by rejecting the Jews in 36 CE and destroying the temple and genealogical records in 70 CE.?

Doesn't the WTS teach that he did that already in 1919 CE by rejecting all other religions and confirming that the WTS had God's backing?

Having fixed it in 1919 why does the "organization" need to be fixed again? Is it another case of apostasy having crept in? Is another cleansing year ahead like 1919?

Blondie

"Normal"...oh you mean like you?

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