i'm with you gringo. there is no reason. there is no freaking meaning.
look at me. i am an animal. i also have a dog. he is an animal too. he eats, sleeps, sh*ts, f*cks, has a brain, has limbs, has eyes. and so do i. WOW! GO FIGURE!! really, from an evolutionary perspective, there is no higher meaning. there is no pinnacle that we are all working for. evolution doesn't give a crap if you exist or not. and what's more, is evolution really doesn't give a crap about you if you are over 30 years old.
people say, "but tetrapod, there still must be meaning and beauty and awe?" and i say that it is all relative to our own individual, thick headed ape brains, so why freaking worry about it? what are you gonna do? huh? spend 60 years finding "meaning" after "meaning", and then just f*cking die? no thanks. i plan on freaking partying a bit before then.
if there is no meaning to existence, then what is the point? why worry about it? why does there have to be meaning? higher order? a utopian place where civilization is at it's finest? why do we have to torture ourselves like that? it's such a crock of sh*t.
what would i give a fuck if the entire human race, all of the animals, all of the biodiversity, and everything just all died tomorrow? what do i care if my descendents have a better world to live in than i did? what do i care? i don't! i am not going to be around, looking down from some freaking silver lined cloud, so what the hell do i care? i want to do something for myself for once! and please, none of this "well, you know tetrapod, there are a lot of people in the world with your attitude, and that's why there is so much suffering." - because i know that already. and you wanna know something? i don't freaking care! okay? kay then.
what meaning is there to the universe? evolution is the only meaning i can see, and although it works fine, it is in itself a totally meaningless concept as far as "we" are concerned.
so then, what is the meaning of our existence?
as far as i can tell, sex, drugs and rock & roll are the only meanings that i can see anywhere in this existence. nihilism, selfishness, epicurianism, music, laughter, love, hatred, good, evil, light and dark, hard core sex, drugs, escapism, and of course raw rock and roll. gangsta rap or Bach, whatever the hell makes you rock harder. trust me, the universe is sexy if you let it be sexy. but it's not good or evil. it's both. and so i will be good and evil too. i will be indifferent. immorality? just as meaningful as morality. and again, i don't give a crap if anyone thinks that is a depreaved way to live. depravity is universal truth as far as i am concerned.
man, there is NOTHING to be ashamed of. nothing nothing nothing. you are an animal. ebrace your biology. if culture gets in the way, shed it. embrace the things that make you tick. the things that turn you on. the things that bring out your soul, your inner animal. and be a god. it's so simple.
TS