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Yes its true folks , my wife caught me in bed reading notes that i had written down about Raymond Franzes book crises of conscience. She is a staunch follower of the borg and i have now been inactive for about 2 years.
I wrote about 30 pages of notes from this book as the only place i could get my hands on one was from the library. I couldnt order one as i was so afraid of her finding out i was reading "apostate " material.
She asked me what i was reading and said it was er just some notes i had written . What notes she persisted . I told her it was just some old notes i had written some years ago whilst in the truth. ( whoops white lie).
Then she said with a suspicious look "show me", and i went into defensive mode saying its just some notes etc etc.
Then she asked me why i was afraid to show her. So i had to tell her with a lot of tact that it was a book written by an ex governing body member who had been difellowshipped for eating a meal with a dissacociated person. " what " she said. " you cant get disfellowshipped for that". And i said well he did. She then went on to say how do you know its the truth he is speaking etc.
So i said well there must be some truth in it when you consider he wrote this book in the early eighties and wrote about how the date 607bce couldnt be substantiated etc etc whence effecting the 1914 date etc and wrote fortelling how the society were going to make some changes in connection with 1914.
I then told her that they did with the generation change in the 1995 or therabouts. " how could he have known that" i said.
"So now u are an apostate she said. I told her that i belived in the bible and that i only read this book out of curiosity and no i am not an apostate i said . I am a person who belives in truth and if i see something wrong. Then i am only being honest with myself. I went on to tell her a few other things such as the changes with regards to the blood issue , organ transplants vacinations etc and how many people must have suffered and died because of these policies coming from the WT. This i found quite worrying when peoples lives are involved i said.
She looked at me blankly and to be quite honest i felt sorry for her. She was brought up as a witness and it was like i was pulling the proverbial rug from under her. I said you are better just leaving things be, trying to reassure her that i wasnt going to cause trouble especially the fact that we have quite a lot of relatives in the WT org.
She then said how could she leave things be when i have sown so much doubt in her mind about her faith that she had been practicing since a child. She then said she wanted to speak to an elder to find out if it were true about raymond franz being disfelloshipped in the way he was. I pleaded with her not to. Firstly it would cause a stink and we would be closely watched and secondly the elders wouldnt disclose information about those whoe have been disfellowshipped.
So her i am and to be honest with you i feel a sense of relief that i finally have had the courage to tell her about what i have read about the society.I only hope she doesnt do anything daft like speaking to the elders or some other witness about what i told her .
But now that i have told her this i know she will be a lot more inquisitive about what other things i know , so hopefully she will ask me soon.
Anyway , thought i would share this experience with you all and if you have any advice as to what i should do from here, i'm all ears or ok eyes then