I'm at a point where I really don't care anymore..................

by JH 19 Replies latest jw friends

  • JH
    JH

    I'm at a point that I really don't care anymore if they disfellowship me. I've never been disfellowshipped before, although I'm inactive for years. I just wanted to remain as I am "Inactive Witness". Like every witness, I was taught that once disfellowshipped, you were dead to Jehovah's eyes.

    But since a few months, something changed, and I don't care anymore about the JW rules.

    I'm not at a point where I will write a letter of dissasociation, but if they do disfellowship me for any reason, It won't bother me at all.

    Does this mean I'm making progress?

  • JH
    JH

    I guess many of us can pinpoint a time, when all of a sudden, we just didn't care anymore.

  • LittleToe
    LittleToe

    I seem to recall that Dansk had a similar revelation. I'd been chatting to him about living his own life with his own rules, and how DA'ing is actually following their rules. Suddenly a light switched on and years of JW dogma slid off of his shoulders

    Sounds like progress to me

  • hubert
    hubert

    It sure does. You won't "feel guilty" if you get df'd.

    So, the brainwashing isn't working anymore. Congratulations, JH.

    Hubert

  • JH
    JH

    Phil Collins

    Well you can tell ev’ryone I’m a down disgrace
    Drag my name all over the place.
    I don’t care anymore.
    You can tell ev’rybody ’bout the state I’m in
    You won’t catch me crying ’cos I just can’t win.
    I don’t care anymore I don’t care anymore

    I don’t care what you say
    I don’t play the same games you play.

    ’cos I’ve been talking to the people that you call your friends
    And it seems to me there’s a means to and end.
    They don’t care anymore.
    And as for me I can sit here and bide my time
    I got nothing to lose if I speak my mind.
    I don’t care anymore I don’t care no more

    I don’t care what you say
    We never played by the same rules anyway.

    I won’t be there anymore
    Get out of my way
    Let me by
    I got better things to do with my time
    I don’t care anymore I don’t care anymore
    I don’t care anymore I don’t care anymore

    Well, I don’t care now what you say
    ’cos ev’ry day I’m feeling fine with myself
    And I don’t care now what you say
    Hey I’ll do alright by myself
    ’cos I know.

    ’cos I remember all the times I tried so hard
    And you laughed in my face ’cos you held all the cards.
    I don’t care anymore.
    And I really ain’t bothered what you think of me
    ’cos all I want of you is just a let me be.
    I don’t care anymore d’you hear? I don’t care no more

    I don’t care what you say
    I never did believe you much anyway.

    I won’t be there no more
    So get out of my way.
    Let me by
    I got better things to do with my time
    I don’t care anymore
    D’you hear? I don’t care anymore
    I don’t care no more
    You listening? I don’t care no more
    No more!

    You know I don’t care no more!

  • z
    z

    Congratulations, JH Keep it up!!!!!!!!!!!!

  • Sassy
    Sassy

    I pretty much feel the same way..

    although I don't think I'll write a letter... the letter (in my opinion) is more for their benefit and their rules than ours.. it helps them keep their records and "cong" clean.... I don't wish to help them in any way

  • BrendaCloutier
    BrendaCloutier

    Wow! JH, that is sooo kewl. Yes, you are progressing.

    ((((((( Rat ))))))))))

    Giant hugs

    Bren

  • Enigma One
    Enigma One

    Wow, it's only taken you 8,900 posts and 37 months to get to this point. I'd say another 5,000 or 6,000 posts and 24 more months....and you should be good as new.

    LOL - j/k

  • JH
    JH

    that just proves how loyal I was

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