Although my username now shows me on since January 19th, I've actually been here a year and a week now. My first post was under another name that I changed later to keep my id secret...but it was;
OK, I've been staring at post after post for hours, done weeks of digging on the web, without speaking to a soul. I figure everyone had to start somewhere, so I just decided to throw it out.I only recently came out of my "lockdown" phase (where you don't even speak about your feelings about "the truth") and have just started looking around. I know you guys can see my profile, etc, but I had to post this and just ask for some direction. Where do I go, what do I do? I have to assume someone out there knows what I am asking when I say that. Was there ever a time when you just decided it was time to come out into the open and look around at what is out there, time to find others like you? What would you tell someone to do first, looking back?
Where do I start rebuilding me?
I feel like it's been about 5 years since then...but in reality it was 51 weeks ago. I lurked for a short time before that, then typed my intro about 20 times...and posted it with what felt like a handful of sawdust in my mouth from being nervous.
What I have learned so far…
A great excuse for anything – “It’s not my/our fault…we were in a cult.”
The Truth is not Truth – Truth never changes, and cannot be used to manipulate people. Truth is fact, and real Truth has power…power to set people free.
We are not alone – self-explanatory
We cannot “save” anyone – we open a door to freedom, some walk through it, some do not. It is not for us to get people out of The Truth, it is for us to provide answers to those who truly seek them. Some come and are not ready, that’s ok. When they are, someone will be here.
Getting offended is a choice – the strong-minded are never offended, but rather try to understand motive, which is rarely to offend.
Be honest to yourself – You can’t begin to learn the truth about anything if you won’t accept the truth about who you are…this means the good and the bad. You can’t lie all the time and consider yourself an honest person, or entitled to the truth about anything…even “The Truth”. If you are a liar, admit you are a liar, then you can change it, same for anything else you are that you do not like.
People inherently WANT to do good but are not inherently good - No one wants to admit they are a bad person, or screwed up in the head…but we all fall into those categories from time to time. What we do about it is what makes a difference.
Knowledge is power – power, like anything else that is a resource can be wasted. Spending your time going round and around with people who waste the knowledge they are given is a waste of time and energy. Sometimes the best thing we can do to help people is to stop trying to help them.
Unconditional love does exist – There are people I speak to here once in a few months, and those who do the same to me. It’s ok. They always have a home with me or at the least a friend, and I hope I do with them. I’m here for when someone needs/wants to talk to me, if they don’t need that, I am happy for them.
If there is a fight, stay out of it – if there is a dispute and it’s not directed at you, stay out of it. You don’t know everything, and no, you don’t have some secret insight into why people feel like they do and regardless of how smart you think you are…you don’t know sh*t. Besides…if you try to roll around in the mud with pigs, you all get dirty…but the pigs like it.
You don’t have to stay – no one person supports the cause, or makes/breaks it. If you want to go, it doesn’t mean you are walking out on the group or anyone, but rather, you are finally able to have what so many still are working towards…true freedom. Never having to speak of the Org again.
I’ve learned what it means to be happy…and I can’t explain that one here…but it’s great, and I have to thank you all for that.
WLG – Free of the Organization for 1 year.
